Dallas Winston - 𝕀𝕞𝕒𝕘𝕚𝕟𝕖𝕤/ℍ𝕖𝕒𝕕𝕔𝕒𝕟𝕠𝕟𝕤

♡︎love

A/N: Modern

"Grey clouds roll over the hills bringing darkness from above, but if you close your eyes, does it almost feel like nothing changed at all?"

Those lyrics hit somewhere deep inside me as I looked at Dallas driving the car, focused on the road.

He stopped driving recklessly and getting in jail as soon as I had a breakdown, horrified he was gonna get killed one of these days because of it.

His fingers intertwined with mine on the center console of our shared car, returning home from our long day at the beach.

The rain hit the windshield aggressively, it was dark outside. I wanted so badly to fall asleep but I had to stay awake with him. I don't know why, I just felt like I needed to be awake.

"Are you sure you don't want me to drive?" I asked and he just looked at me and sighed.

"Listen to yourself, you're tired. I'm alright." He said and looked back at the road and gripped the steering wheel.

I didn't know what was going on in his head but he was playing with my engagement ring with his thumb, which he only did when he was stressed.

I would've asked him, but I was too worried he'd have a violent outburst like he did sometimes. He always got angry and would punch a wall or the steering wheel and start yelling. Instead, I kissed his hand and looked out the window.

~~~

We pulled into the driveway and he quickly got out and rushed into the house. I got out slowly, even though it was pouring and I carefully walked in.

I closed the door and took off my rain soaked jacket and kicked off my shoes. I saw him sitting on the couch, deep in thought as I walked into the kitchen and poured myself some water and sipped it, waiting for him to do something.

I looked at the clock and saw the time. 10:42 pm.

I saw him get startled when his phone rang, and he picked up immediately and walked into the bathroom.

"Johnny, I don't know how to ask her man." He said, trying to be quiet.

"You already know." He says again and I tried to listen.

"When I saw that negative test in the garbage, it made me realize maybe I do want a kid. How do I tell her that?" He said and I dropped my glass.

"Shit, something just broke, I gotta go."

He rushed out of the bathroom and looked at me as I struggled to pick up the pieces.

"What happened?" He said and helped me.

"I accidentally knocked it off the counter." I said and smiled at him and got the broom and swept it up.

He stood in the kitchen and watched me as I threw it away, obviously wanting to tell me his secret.

"Y/n?" I heard him say.

"Yes?" I said and walked up to him and wrapped my arms around him.

"Do you want kids? With me?" He finally said and I giggled.

"Of course I do," I said and he smiled, "Why do you ask?"

"I found this, made me realize that I kind of do too," He said and showed me the negative test. My smile dropped and I took it from his hand and remembered the pain I felt when I saw it.

~~~

I took the test, praying and hoping it would be positive this time. I wanted a kid, I didn't know if Dally did but I did. I was ready to do this on my own if I had to.

But when I saw it, the one solid line I broke into tears. I tossed it in the trash and sat on the bathroom floor crying, knowing he'd be home any minute.

~~~

"What's wrong?" He said and snapped me out of my flashback.

"I really want a baby, Dally." I said and placed the test on the counter.

He noticed me getting extremely upset and hugged me.

"I think I'm ready too." He said and I looked at him with hope in my eyes.

"You really mean it?" I asked him and he smiled at me and hugged me again.

"I really mean it."