Dallas Winston - 𝕀𝕞𝕒𝕘𝕚𝕟𝕖𝕤/ℍ𝕖𝕒𝕕𝕔𝕒𝕟𝕠𝕟𝕤

♡︎another

A/N: family series
Modern
Part 2 to "hit"
@isabella998843

I sat on the floor and picked up the pills off the floor while he was on the floor outside sleeping. I counted each pill even though it felt like a million.

93, 94, 95, 96, 97, 98, 99, 100. I put the last pill in my hand and I poured them into the garbage. I picked up the destroyed bottle and I threw the pieces in the garbage and I sat on the tile.

I crossed my legs and I put my head in my hands. I felt sick tonight. I shot up and threw up in the toilet and I heard him groan. The door opened and he sat down next to me. I looked at him with a tired face and he was equally as drained as I.

I stood up and put out my hand. He took it and we walked to our bed. "I love you more than you think," He said and put his hand behind my head. I closed my eyes and nodded and fell back on my pillow, and immediately went to sleep.

In the morning, I brought Addy to school and Natalie to daycare. I got back home to find a very angry Dallas, which I was scared of, and startled by.

"You threw out my fucking pills?!" He yelled and got really close to me. "What was I supposed to do? I was scared-" I began before he paced the room and came back.

"We were supposed to work something out, but you're back to doing whatever the fuck you want!" He put his hand up and ran his fingers through his hair but I jumped back and started to breathe heavily.

"I'm not gonna fucking hit you! Why do you keep thinking that?!" He yelled and I stormed off into the bathroom. I slammed the door and he came running.

"Why are you so mad? Why are you so scared of me?" He asked and I swung open the door. "Because I'm pregnant and you're depressed, I don't know if you know any better but those two things don't work together!" I screamed and slammed the door again. I sat on the edge of the tub again and I sobbed.

"Open the door." He said and I sniffled. "No," I said and he knocked again. "Just let me talk to you." He begged from the other side.

He found the door unlocked and walked in. He got on his knees in front of me and looked at me. "You're pregnant?" He said and I nodded. "I mean I can't say I didn't expect it, but I didn't expect it to be so soon."

"You should have told me before we started trying." I cried and he took my hands in his. "I wanted to baby but I didn't know how." He said and I sat in silence for a minute.

Soon, I looked at him and smiled. "I'm pregnant!" I said softly and he looked up and started to smile. He got up and I hugged him. He got back on his knees and lifted my shirt.

"Hey little guy, it's your dad, I think," He joked and I laughed, "I'm gonna treat you and your mama, and your two sisters damn right. Damn right." He whispered and I smiled and felt the same butterflies. He traced his finger around my stomach and kissed it softly.

"What do you say, Dal? Let's pick up the girls later and tell them." I offered and he looked at me and nodded. He stood up and wrapped me in his arms and swayed.

"I'll get better, I'll work on myself without the meds." He said and I felt myself tear up. "I just don't understand, you have so much to live for?" I said and he took a deep inhale.

"It's not what I don't have, it's what I do have, and the fear of it slipping away, so I just keep thinking if I end it all I won't have to go through the pain of losing you." He squeezed me tighter. "You'll be alright baby, because we're not going anywhere. No matter how bad you fuck up I could never see myself letting you go." I said and he nodded.

We eventually went to go pick up our daughters and we brought them to the park. We got out of the car and before they ran off to play, we stopped them.

"We have something to tell you guys." I said and I looked at my husband, and he passed me a sweet smile. "What is it?" Natalie asked and Adeline stood politely.

"Well, mama has a baby in her stomach, so that means you're gonna have a little brother or sister!" Dally said and their faces lit up with excitement, especially Adeline's.

"Really?!" Addy said and hugged Dally tightly. She pulled away and jumped on me. "I'm gonna be a big sister!" Natalie said and I pulled her into our hug and Dally joined.

"Best day ever!" They both yelled and ran off. Dally and I walked to the bench and looked at each other and laughed. "I guess they took it well." I said and he smiled and kissed me.