Dallas Winston - 𝕀𝕞𝕒𝕘𝕚𝕟𝕖𝕤/ℍ𝕖𝕒𝕕𝕔𝕒𝕟𝕠𝕟𝕤

♡︎awake

TW: SH, Suicide.

Dally sat asleep against the wall. I admired him, so peaceful and happy.

I brushed his messy hair off his forehead and kissed it, whispered "I love you." And I stood back up. I grabbed my blade and I looked at it with shakey hands, knowing that he was gonna wake up without me.

I took the blade to my left wrist. I grimaced with pain as I cut deeper. I lifted the blade as blood poured out and took it to my right wrist, repeating the same process. I was already starting to get extremely tired, knowing I took five melatonin pills before this. I placed the note on the counter and sat between Dally's legs, crying to myself and waiting to die.

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I screamed and Dally shot up with me and I got out of bed and rushed to the bathroom and started crying.

He quickly followed me and picked me up off the floor again and carried me back to bed and held me to him.

I cried into his shoulder and he held on tight.

"I died again. Suicide." I whispered.

"You gotta stop dreaming that shit." He said and rubbed circles with his thumb on my back.

"It's hard not to." I said and I looked at him, "I'm scared one of these days it's not gonna be a dream."

"I'm not gonna leave you, to make sure they are just dreams." He said and brush hair behind my ear.

"That's the problem, I always kill myself after you fall asleep." I said and he sighed.

"I guess I'm not gonna sleep anymore." He said and smiled.

"You have to, its unhealthy-" He kissed me. And It made me remember what all I was living for.

He tried to pull away but I kissed him harder, not wanting to let go.

"Don't let go," I whispered between kisses.

"I promise." He said and kissed me again, full of love.