Natasha Romanoff One shots

Dear Natasha

Warnings: death mentions, swearing
Y/n Pov

Dear Natasha,

If you're reading this then either I died or Thor gave it to you. Either way, I'm sorry for everything that's happened between us. I know we weren't the best of friends in the end but I really did love you.

  You probably read the last line going "whatttttt y/l/n could love someone?" The answer is yes. I did love someone and that someone is you, surprise. I know it is shocking and finding out in a letter isn't the most ideal way, but this is the only way I could think to tell you.

  If I am dead there is absolutely nothing you can do about it. I'm six feet under and hopefully, I died doing something stupid with Thor. I'd be okay if I died a hero too, that would actually be so cool. If not, I'll probably be pissed up in heaven, or hell, who knows really.

   So if I'm alive I'll probably be jumping off a cliff because Thor showed you this. If you don't feel the same way I don't want anything to change. I don't think I could handle that, but if you do feel the same way I want you to act on it. I just don't have it in me to be bold Natasha. I need you to be the bold one this time. If you are, there will be so much in store for you.

  So your probably thinking, "holy shit y/l/n what's the point to this letter?" The point is to tell you I love you. It's also to inform you what I love/ loved about you. The tense of the word depends on whether I'm still alive or not. Anyways let's get going.

  One of my favorite things about you is when you swear in Russian. Its hot but it's also the funniest thing ever. Especially when Tony pisses you off and you say something beyond offensive to him. It's even better when you make a mistake on paperwork and you swear.

I also love it when you start teasing me when we're in the middle of a meeting and you know we can't do anything about it. It might not have seemed like much to you but it made my heart flutter every time. It also turned me on which was so easy for you because you knew what I liked.

I wish that I could have told you face to face that I love you but I'm a coward when it comes to certain things. And this is one of those things that I'm cowardly about.

Sometimes I wish we could change what happened between us but when Bucky told me what you did I didn't think I could ever forgive you.

Luckily for you, this letter isn't just me confessing my love for you, it's my letter of me forgiving you.

It's been six months since Bucky told me that you killed my parents because they were a treat or whatever.

It took me six months to figure out that you didn't have a choice in it and you were young so I'm finally forgiving you. It took everything in me to forgive you because my parents met the entire world to me and you took them away from me.

I hope you can forgive me for ignoring you for six months, but to be fair, it was completely justifiable. I love you Natasha Romanoff and I'm sorry for everything.

I hope you can forgive me love because I'm finally past it.

Lots of love,
Y/n y/l/n

Natasha's Pov

    I wish Thor would have shown me this sooner. Maybe this would have changed things between us before she left.

   It would of been so different when she left for London to pursue her studies but instead I was a total jerk. She loved me enough to forgive me for doing the unthinkable.

   If I would have known that I would have cared so much more about her leaving. Now I have to go ruin what a great thing she has going in London.