Natasha Romanoff One shots

Family

Warnings: breast cancer, death, death due to cancer, loss of a mother, loss of wife, loss of sister/ best friend, swearing, it's kinda sad.

Nat's Pov

Y/f/d -> your favorite dish

It has been a week since Y/n died. None of us knew Y/n was sick because she was really good at hiding it.

We found out she was sick when she passed out after making dinner. Tony rushed her to the medical wing just to find out she had stage four breast cancer.

The doctor told Tony that Y/n had cancer for three months and it was progressing intensely. She didn't have much time left. She died three days later.

It was rough for everyone. Tony didn't leave his room because he had just lost his little sister, Steve and Bucky lost their best friend, Thor lost his cooking buddy, and I lost my wife. I think the worst part is that Cora and Jamie lost their mother. 

I was slowly getting over it. And by over it, I mean excepting the fact that I will never be able to see her again. Cora and Jamie don't understand what's going on that much.

I was walking through the kitchen when Tony stopped me.

  "Nat, I found a video labeled "Dear Avengers 9/27/18"

  I realized that was filmed two weeks ago. "We need to watch it, Tony. It's clearly made for a reason."

  Tony quickly agreed and rounded up the rest of the avengers. I grabbed Cora and Jamie before sitting down to watch the video.

Everyone was settled on the couch as Tony put the DVD in the player.

We all watched as Y/n appeared on the screen. It made me smile seeing her again. The kids were confused but I expected nothing less.

"Hi, guys. God this feels so weird but here it is, I'm dying. About six months ago, I got diagnosed with breast cancer. It was at stage two and we tried fighting it, but it just got worse and worse. About two weeks ago I got told that the treatment wasn't working and it had gotten to stage four and I wasn't gonna make it."

Hearing Y/n's voice was so comforting but I hated knowing that she had to make this video. I looked over at Tony and he was already starting to cry just by seeing his sister.

"I am so sorry that I didn't tell you I had cancer. I thought I was going to beat it because I'm a fighter, but here we are." Y/n laughed as she said that and it made my heart flutter. I miss her laugh and how it made everyone else in the room laugh.

"So, I could tell some sap story about how hard this has been but I'm not going to bore you all too much. I have a speech prepared to say how I feel about everyone."

Oh god, we were all going to be in tears by the end of this.

"First I would just like to give a brief description of family. Family isn't always blood, but it's the people you feel safe with, it is the people you find a home in. You guys all treated me so well and I'm forever grateful for that. You are the best family I could have asked for and I'm so sorry that my part of the story is ending so soon."

I didn't know how to feel about this speech. I looked at Y/n and I's kids and wanted to start bawling my eyes out.

"First off is Steve and Bucky. You guys are the best friends a person could ask for. You were there for me when I needed a shoulder to cry on, you guys were the first people I came out to, you guys always made me feel excepted and you always made me feel protected. I owe you for a thousand lifetimes and I wish nothing but the best for you guys."

I heard Steve sniffle and Bucky was hiding his head. I knew he was crying but he wasn't going to let anyone see it.

"Next up we have Tony. You are the best big brother I could ever ask for. You always made sure I was safe and okay whenever dad would shit talk me. You also helped me through so much mentally and I am forever grateful that you helped me. I also know how hard it was for you to let me be alive and free after our parents died but I'm glad you let me be free. Now I am glad to say I will be free from all this pain soon."

Yet again, another blubbering baby. I understood why he was crying though. His baby sister died and all she did was leave a tape.

"Oh Thor, don't think I forgot about you."

Thor's face lit up for a second but then slowly went back to sad once he remembered that this is pretty much a death note.

"Thor, I love how clueless you are about everything. You may think that you're dumb, but I promise you, you are one of the smarter people I've met and that's coming from an MIT graduate. Anyways, I always want you to cook y/f/d whenever you miss me. I never want you to stop cooking because you are amazing at it."

Seeing Thor looks so proud of himself that Y/n called him smart made my whole year. I love how caring she was. Ouch, it hurt to say she was something.

"Now, for the second most painful goodbye, no offense tony, but come on you easily were third."

I heard Tony laugh at his sister's joke and it made me smile.

"My two lovely children. I am so sorry I'm going to miss your lives. I tried to fight for you, but it just wasn't working. Vi amo, miei dolci figli*. Please don't ever forget your Italian. It will be very useful one day. I'm so sorry I have to leave you but unfortunately, my time is up. I love you more than words can describe. Please don't ever forget that I always have been and always will be your biggest supporter."

  My eyes were getting glossy. Cora and Jamie were holding each other crying. I wanted to hold them and cry but the Russian in me told me to be strong.

  "Cora, Jamie, I promise you that I will always love you no matter what. Andate a fare cose incredibili miei cari. Prometto che ne vale la pena^. I love you my little doves."

The girls muttered something in Italian between their sobs and went back to hugging. My hurt stung for them, they just lost their mother.

  "Oh my most dreaded goodbye, my Natasha."

  I knew this one was going to sting.

  "I can't even express to you how I feel about you because you already know. Keeping from you that I was sick was the hardest thing for me to do for six months. I don't want you to feel bad for not knowing because it isn't your fault. I love you so much Nat, and nothing should ever convince you otherwise. Секс был хорошим, но, как говорится, все хорошее подходит к концу.°"

  I laughed at her joke as I wiped the tears from my eyes.

  "I'm all seriousness, I was practicing that for a week just for this note because my Russian sucks balls. I love you my Natasha. Please take care of our girls for me."  

  "I promise my sweetheart" I muttered underneath my breath. This was all very much for me but I knew she wasn't in pain so it was okay.

   "Now as a group, I love you all so much, more than words could ever possibly describe. I'm so sorry this is our ending but it is how it is. I love you all to the moon and back times infinity."

  The screen soon went dark and we were all crying. It wasn't fair that she was dead and that we were still living.

  It wasn't her fault she got cancer. I was full-on sobbing at this point so I went down with the twins.

  I wrapped them in a hug so tight they would never forget it. I just felt so bad for them that this is how they lost their mother. No child should ever have to go through this. Especially at six years old.

  At one point, we were all on the floor hugging each other hoping you would walk through that door, but unfortunately, you never did. And somehow we all learned to accept it when we were all together like this.

  Good bye my sweetheart. I hope you're doing all right in heaven.

*I love you, my sweet Children

^ Go do amazing things my darlings. I promise it's worth it

° The sex was good, but as they say, all good things come to an end.