Natasha Romanoff One shots

Set me free

  Y/n's pov

Warnings: Manipulation, lying, kinda cheating, and swearing.

It was a constant cycle. I would want her, but she didn't want me, she would want me, and I wouldn't want her.

  It was constant and we never seemed to like each other at the same time. It was exhausting and I couldn't take it anymore.

   This morning I decided to end it. I woke up and went for a run. Running cleared my head and this run made it very apparent that I needed to end it with Natasha.

   It was the perfect time to do it too. I was leaving for Washington DC for a a CSI training.

   I came back to the compound and saw Tony in the kitchen.

   "Hey Tone. How's it going?" He smiled at me before the toaster popped.

   "It's good kid. I'm gonna have everyone say goodbye to you at noon. Then your dad is going to take you to the airport."

    I smiled at him before grabbed a bottle of apple juice. I ran back up to my room to finish some last minute packing and to shower.

   I made sure to lock my door because people in the compound tend to not respect privacy. I checked the clock to see I had an hour and a half to finish everything up.

     The hour and a half went by so quickly. I barely had time to shower so when I went downstairs to say goodbye, I looked like a drenched rat.

   I didn't really care though because everyone has seen me break down at one point or another.

   I came down the stairs to see everyone in the meeting room. I could hear them yelling at each other about something.

     "Why are you letting her do this? She's not ready Steve! She's not ready!" Nat was crying, she was really upset about me leaving.

    "Nat! You get no say. You string Y/n's heart along, and then act like you fucking care about her. Y/n has been ready to leave this place since the last time you broke her heart." Bucky was mad and I don't blame him. He was basically my second dad and he knew everything about me and Nat.

    "Stay out of this Bucky. You're not even her dad." Before it could get any worse, I decided to walk in the room. I could easily cut the tension with a knife.

    "Hey guys, I'm running a little late and it's gonna take longer to get to the airport, so I'm going to have to rush the goodbyes. Dad, Buck, can you go down and wait in the car. I've got a few things I wanna take care of."

   They both left and the tension resolved a little bit. I slowly went around and said a heartfelt goodbye.

  Thor cried, Wanda was extremely sad, and Peter didn't want to leave the hug. It was very sad and I hated it. My final goodbye however was definitely going to be the hardest.

     "Hi honey." The way honey sounded with Nat's accent almost made me forget about everything that's happened.

   "Hi Natasha. You know why I'm here." Her face shifted drastically.

   "Please, please don't leave me Y/n. I promise, this won't be like all the other times."

   I would love to believe her, but she said this every time. She promised she would love me, but then she would go fuck some random bitch.

    It was an exhausting cycle with her.

   "Everyone but Nat, please leave. I don't want to make a scene." The room cleared quickly leaving me and Nat alone.

     "Nat, I'm doing this for me. Oh, and by the way, your promise means nothing. You claim you love me now, but the issue is I don't love you. Plus, you'd probably go fuck some random girl at a bar if I said I did."

  She was clearly hurt by this. I wasn't trying to start a fight, I was just trying to be completely honest with her.

  "Y/n, you know I do that because I love you too much. I don't know how to express it so I do it to other women." There was no way she was serious.

   "Nat, I don't feel like being manipulated. If you ever truly loved me, you wouldn't do that. I'm just a game to you. Just please, set me free."

   I started to tear up and she did too. She didn't expect me to say that. We made a deal a long time ago, that if one of us wanted out of our cat and mouse game, we had to let them out.

   "Okay Y/n. You can leave. Just know I'll never stop loving you."

    "I know." I seriously doubted her, so I just wanted to fill the silence.

   "Goodbye Natasha." I walked out of the room and let out a shaky breath. That was one of the hardest things I've ever had to do.

  At least now, when I go to DC, I won't have anything to feel guilty about.