Virgin Mary

33/Fool.

Josephine

"You had me worried sick, you weren't answering my calls, texts, nothing!" Katherine yells as we are standing in the kitchen.

"I know, I know. Last night was a complete mess and Hero walked in after you left and I needed to leave because he wouldn't so I walked to the frat house and he followed me, I drank too much, he took care of me and then you know he took me to his room and I fell asleep. Nothing happened except a lot of arguments. That's all it is with us and it was just nothing real it was all stupid, just a big mess." I say and she shakes her head.

"A mess?" she sighs shaking her head laughing. "A fucking mess that you don't need to be involved in!" she yells and I shake my head. "I'm done this time I really am!" I yell back.

"You said that how long ago Jo! Then you wake up in his room, you argue and suddenly it's done now?" She says and I sigh.

"You yelling at me about it isn't helping and never will."

"If mom and dad ever find out about this your done, you are so fucking screwed." she says and goes upstairs and I just lean my face into my hands.

Will she ever tell our parents? I don't think she ever would actually tell them but it's Saturday and they won't be home for who knows how long. At this point they mind as well just move out and let me live here alone because it feels like everyday.

I run my hands through my hair and sigh and go upstairs and lay in my bed.

"Jo." I get shaken up and I wake up to Katherine all dressed up. "What?"

"I'm leaving, I don't know when I'll be back but stay here. Do not leave, if I find out you left-" she begins and I sit up and throw my hands out. "Okay, okay! I won't leave!" I say and she nods and just walks out. I look at my phone and it's about to be five and I am starving for some chicken pasta. I know we have all the ingredients and I know I can cook it or am I just too upset to even do anything.

I shake my head and just hurry up and hop into the shower. He's not worth my time and I keep saying I'm done but I keep going back and I don't know why. Is it because he keeps coming back and I just give in? I can't blame this all on him because it is certainly is not just his fault because I keep giving in but I don't know why he keeps coming around me, why he keeps asking questions about me and more importantly why he keeps ruining things for me. I've learned a lot about him these past three months I've known him.

When he's angry he drinks then he drinks even more because he's mad he drank. He has severe anger issues, he had a hard childhood and has bad trauma because of his parents. He's angry with his parents then takes his anger out on Mercy, I wonder where their brother Titan is, we've never talked about it and It's sure none of my business to ask about it.

He has never had a girlfriend and I am surely saying I don't count. He has had sex with so many girls in this school and I wouldn't doubt ones in college too. He has used plenty of girls just for his pleasure and doesn't care about them. What's so different with me?

He has a scar on his elbow from when he fell when he was 9, he laughs about it and remembers balling his eyes out when it happened. He told me how he finds it interesting that I love books and he actually is interested in what I say when I talk about them. He talks about cars with me and his favorite flower is a dahlia. He says he's loved them ever since he was a little kid.

We get the same exact order at McDonalds and he found it hilarious. He's a good cook and he learned it from his grandma, he really enjoys pizza, it may have to be his favorite food spaghetti in second place. He loves when I fall asleep in his arms, he claims he sleeps much better than he usually does and I just don't understand. He loves when I sleep in his pajamas too.