Agent J4

Huling Kabanata

I asked Sabrina again nang umiwas siya ng tingin. "Are you part of this?"

Tumikhim muna siya bago sumagot. "Yes, Love. At lahat ng ito ay planado."

"It's what?" I can't help but raise a voice.

"Planado ang lahat," ngumiti si Sabrina. She smiled, as if mawawala ng ngiti niya ang iritasyong nararamdaman ko.

"I'm sorry, Love. I did this because Ryder Gov asked for my help."

Cazzo! So, nag-alala lang ako sa wala? Sobrang kaba ko tapos, okay naman pala siya. May padugo-dugo pang nalalaman! This is... This is bullshit!

"I love you, Emmie, that's why agreed with the plan. Now, you two better talk," sinara niya ang pinto. Naiwan uli kaming dalawa ni Ryder Gov.

You two better talk. What the hell? I was trying to talk him these past few days pero hindi niya ako pinapansin. Tapos umabot siya ng ganito?

"What the hell is wrong with you?" Nilingon ko si Gov. "I was trying to talk to you these past few days pero hindi mo ako pinapansin. Tapos umabot ka ng ganito? You used yourself. You pretended that you've been abducted. Iyon pala, planado ang lahat. What do you want?"

He opened his mouth pero walang lumabas na salita kaya itinikom niya uli.

"I was worried for nothing! You... You played with my feelings, Ryder Gov!"

Fuck! Tumalikod ako at hinarap ang pader. I'm trying to calm myself dahil naiinis talaga ako. Damn, all clues- weird clues were on it kanina. But, I disregards those dahil akala ko nakidnap talaga siya. Akala ko, I'm with Sabrina and Morgan kaya naging madali ang lahat.

"I... I just wanted to talk to you." I heard him say pero hindi ko siya hinarap. I washed my hands on my face and ran my fingers through my hair.

"Baby..."

"Shut up. Bigyan mo muna ako ng ilang minuto na mag-isip. I wanna stay rational and understand your side."

"Okay."

Napaupo ako sa sahig at naitakip ko sa mukha ang mga kamay.

I don't understand ba't pa umabot ng ganito. Hindi ko naman siya iniiwasan. I closed my eyes tightly and think about the whole situation.

Natakot ba siya? I tried to talk to him naman. Itinigil ko nga lang dahil nagmumukha lang akong tanga. But that doesn't mean na hindi ko na siya susuyuin uli. I was thinking for alternative way. Does he think I give up or what? Tingin ba niya aalis ulit ako at iiwan siya?

Nanatili akong nakapikit at ilang beses na nagbuntong-hininga. Ang dami kong tanong na kailangang masagot but I need to calm down first. Naiirita pa rin ako!

I did the inhale and exhale thing for about five times, slowly. Nang okay na 'ko, gumalaw ako para lumipat ng upo. Sumandal ako sa pader and then I looked at him. Nakaupo siya sa kahoy na upuan habang nakayuko. Nakakaawa siyang tingnan, lalo na't may bakas ng dugo ang damit niya. Nang maramdaman niyang nakatitig ako sa kanya, tumingin siya sa direksyon ko. He looked like shit. His eyes were begging.

Nag-iwas ako ng tingin. "Talk."

He cleared his throat and started talking. "I thought you give up... as all I did was ignore you. This morning... I asked Tres where you are as I didn't see you around. He told me that you are pissed and don't want to be disturbed. I got scared, baby," nanginig ang boses niya. Kaya napatingin uli ako sa kanya.

"Tres suggested this plan. Nagdadalawang isip pa ako no'ng una but the more minutes that Tres can't call you, I felt even more scared. That's why, I agreed with this. I also thought, that this way, we could talk." Nagtama ang mga mata namin nang mag-angat siya ng tingin. Bakas ang takot sa mga mata niya. "I am sorry, baby. I didn't mean to play with your feelings. Damn, I fucking love you, that's why I agreed with this."