Taming The Rain

Chapter 28

After the service ay dumeretso kami sa bahay nila Billie. Dahil okay na ang Dad ni Billie, kami lang at ang parents ni Billie ang magkasama sa Bible study. Hindi na Kasi allowed ang mga boys Sabi ni Tita after they found out that we have created some special relationship with them.

"Esther, how's your mom?"

"Okay naman po siya, Tita. Kaya lang medyo hindi po kami nag-kakausap ngayon dahil sobrang busy ko sa school."

"Oo nga noh. Naku ito ngang si Billie kung hindi ko I chat hindi din mag cha-chat sa akin."

"Mommy naman oh. Nag cha-chat po kaya ako." Natatawang Sabi ni Billie.

"Sus, baka si Paul ang ka chat mo lagi! Naku sinasabi ko sa iyo anak. Wag na muna Yan. Study first muna."

"I know naman, Mom. I've talked with Paul about it and he's fine with it.

"Mabuti. And I believe you are the same Esther?"

"Ah, yes po, Tita."

"Ay naku, who'd have thought no? Ang bata nyo pa noon pero ngayon may love life na kayo. Di ba hon?"

Ngumiti lamang Ang daddy ni Billie sumasang-ayon SA sinabi ni Tita.

"Tita naman, nanliligaw pa lang naman po."

"I know. But San ba pupunta yan di ba? Pero for now, just enjoy your single life muna."

"Yes naman po mommy. Di ba Bessy? " Nag fist bump naman kami.

Natawa nalang sina Tita sa amin ni Billie.

Matthew's Point of view

I feel like Esther is avoiding me. We already talked last night about setting up boundaries but I feel like she is going to avoid me forever.

I feel a deep pain in my heart but I chose to surrender it all to God. If this is His will, Thy will be done, Lord.

When the service was over, someone called me. Wait, I know that voice. Paglingon ko, Siya Pala talaga.
It's Hannah, one of my friends.

"Oyy Matthew! kamusta? "

"I'm good, ikaw?"

"Eto okay lang din. Sabi nila Paul may nililigawan ka na daw?"

"Ah, yes si-"

"Siya ba? Yong Kasama ni Billie?" She pointed towards Billie and Esther, who was also looking at us.

But Esther looks away and runs together with Billie. Is she angry?

"Yeah. Anyways I got to go, Han. Nice talking to you."

"Oh sure. I need to go to the pastor's office also."

I followed Esther and Billie but I was too late. Naka alis na ang car nila Tito. Even with that, I understand why nauna na sila. Billie's Parents and Dad already talked about it that we will not join the usual bible study anymore with the girls. Instead we'll do it here in church nalang together with all the boys. To be honest, I still prefer that we join Billie and the others. But then it's also a good thing to do it here so that we can also teach the other youth in getting closer to God.

I'll still court Esther but with boundaries. I'll wait until the right time comes that God will allow us to be together and marry.

Esther's point of view

Kakatapos lang ng Bible study namin at sobrang puno talaga ng kaligayahan ang aking puso. Sobrang down ko kasi these past few weeks siguro dahil nabaon ako sa madaming school works, na kahit bakasyon ay madaming assignments at projects. Minsan ang sarap nang umiyak at sumuko, pero dahil nandyan si Lord, kinakaya. Sobra-sobra man Ang pahirap at pagod, mas grabe Naman ang grace na binibigay niya.

Yung babagsak ka na sana pero, inaangat ka niya at binibigyan ng lakas para lumaban. This is how amazing Jesus is.

"Bessy, galit ka ba kay Kuya Matt?" Biglang tanong naman ni Billie.

Hindi naman agad Ako makasagot SA Kanya.

And then..

"Bessy, sa tingin mo ba.. deserving ba ko sa kanya? "
Biglang tanong ko naman si Bessy na siyang nagbigay gulat sa mukha niya.

"Bessy why? Tingin mo ba Hindi mo deserve si Kuya?"

Malungkot naman akong tumango sa kanya bilang sagot.

Billie gave me a hug and said.
"Bessy, don't forget how undeserving we are in God's love. Jesus died for all of our sins, in order for us to be saved, even though we don't deserve it. Jesus still loves us unconditionally even though we are sinners. So don't think that you don't deserve to be loved. "

"Bessy…"

Billie's right. We don't deserve God's love but He still loves us so much. No one is deserving in this world but because of God's grace, we are loved.

" Don't look down on yourself Bessy, and don't compare yourself to others. Just be you, okay? "

"Okay. Thank you bessy ha. Thank you Lord." Sabi ko naman and we hug each other na parang hindi kami nagkita ng isang taon.

Matapos ang aming godly dramahan session ay nagpa-alam na kami kina Tita na babalik na muna kami sa apartment para kumuha ng gamit. Dito kasi muna kami mag stay kina Tita until new year. Dahil ayaw ni mama na mag stay ako kila Papa, dito nalang daw muna ako sa parents ni Billie. Ayoko din namang maiwan mag-isa sa apartment. Kaya go na Ako!

Nang makabalik kami ulit sa bahay nina Billie ay agad kong kinuha ang aking Bible and when I randomly open it, it landed to Proverbs 31.

  Shems!!!

I remember what Kuya Jacob said again kanina sa church.

" It feels like I met the woman in Proverbs 31."