This Is, Love (GxG)

Chapter 40

Lovely Uzziah

Thursday.

It's just the same as yesterday. I still haven't got enough sleep, my eyes are swollen, I felt like having a dark moon-shaped under my eyes and I'm one of the zombies to be honest.

Function? How to function?

Magagalit ba ang nescafe kapag hindi ako bumangon ngayon?

I groaned. I'm alone in my house so no one will growl at me to stand up even though I'm nearly late for my class today.

If this is a hell-week for students because it's their final examination, well to me, it is too, not because of exams but because of stupidity in love. I feel like hell, feel like I'm under the earth's core. This is what love makes people, huh? It sucks to all the sucking suckery suckiness inside my chest.

Broke. Dumb. Vulnerable. Pain. Useless. I feel useless.

I covered the blanket all over my body and hid myself in it as if there was someone out there looking for me.

Just give me a minute to process everything, that I still have a life outside this so called Love. But what if my life and my love is in that one person?

Ugh! Ruined.

"Couz!"

I'm hallucinating am I? Naririnig ko si Nervana. Tsk.

"Ziah!"

Ngayon naman si Natalie. Bakit ba hindi ako tigilan ng dalawang ito kahit saglit lang?

"Ouch! What the—" Usal ko sabay balikwas ng katawan at napabangon bigla sa pagkakahiga.

May naramdaman lang naman akong bagay na tumama sa ulo ko. Libro!

"What the hell?! Who did that?"

"Oh my goodness! Look at you!" Natalie's nose flared with what she sees in me. What is it in me?

"Couz, ano ba iyan? Mukha kang zombie na tuyot." Komento pa ng isa. Naconcious ako sa sinabi niya at dali daling humakbang pababa ng kama para magtungo sa banyo at icheck ang sarili sa salamin.

Fuck. She's right. What kind of face is this. Hindi pa ata ako nakakapagtanggal ng make up sa mukha simula paguwi ko kagabi and I still wore my blouse yesterday. Oh my god, disgusting shit!

"Ang kalat!" Sigaw pa ni Natalie sa loob ng kwarto. "What the hell are you doing with your life, Ziah?! You drunk, you stink, you look...my goodness! You really looked like a zombie!" Ramdam ko ang pagkairita at pagiinarte ng boses niya. Natawa si Nervana sa sinabi nang ate niya kaya hindi ko maiwasang hindi mapahilot sa sentido ko. Naramdaman ko bigla ang pagsakit ng ulo ko dahil sa puyat at sa ininom kong wine kagabi.

"Go fix yourself, kami na ang maghahanda ng gagamitin mo. And make it faster, we're going to be late!" Dagdag pa niya.

Tinalo pa si Mommy kung makautos at magalit.

Wala na akong nagawa kundi sumunod. Ano pa nga ba? It's Natalie. Her authoritativeness is overflowing.

I pushed myself in my shower room and didn't even bother to turn on the heater again. The coldness makes me awake eh.

After a while, I get out of my bathroom and head outside with my bathrobe hugging my body.

Nakita kong nakaupo si Natalie sa dulo ng kama ko habang nakakrus ang mga braso at binti with her usual stoic expression on her face.