the trip that started it all

Chap.41

" Connor?" He whimpered.

" Troye..." I whispered.

" Can we talk?" He asked.

" Is there anything to talk about?" I asked.

" i deserved that . Please let's just clear things up." He begged.

" Fine." I grumbled.

We headed over to the coffee shop and I sat down in my chair.

" Do you want to go first or shall I?" He asked.

" You go." I said, crossing my arms.

I was half pissed and half delighted i was here with Troye.

" Ok, first off, I'm a jerk. I'm so sorry. I had no right to accuse you of cheating without any proof or hearing the full story. I hope you can forgive me because this is hands down the stupidest thing I have ever done. Connor, I love you with all my heart and I didn't want to loose you." He said.

" Can I ask some questions?" I asked.

" Of course." He stated.

" Do you really think I'm the type person to cheat on you?" I asked.

" No, I got jealous." He huffed.

" Then how do I know your not going to do this again?" I retorted.

" You have to trust me." He pleaded.

" Ok then. Troye, I love you so fucking much but I don't want to go through heartache over things I didn't do." I cried out.

" Babe, I'll work on it, ok? Please just come back. I miss you." He said, almost crying.

I felt it in my heart. I was going to break. I couldn't stand to see him this sad even though I was pissed.

" Troye, please don't cry." I cooed. " I love you. I still wanna walk down the aisle."

" Is that a yes?" He asked, wiping a tear.

" It is indeed a yes." I smiled.

" Oh Connor, I promise you won't regret this." He said, grinning ear to ear. " Are we gonna head back home or?"

" I prepaid a beach house for the week that we can go back to." I said.

" Ok." He said, grabbing for my hand.

We called an uber and I went inside and collapsed on the bed. I started to fall asleep until a thought hit me.

" Troye?" I called.

" Yeah?" He asked.

" Come here." I said.

" What is it?" He asked, standing in the door frame.

" I forgot my pills." I whimpered, fiddling with my hands.

His face lit up and dug through his bag till he pulled out 3 several pill bottles and through them my way.

" Your such a great boyfriend." I sighed.

" Fiancé." He corrected.

" Troye, I don't have my ring." I started to cry hysterically.

He walked over and rocked me back and forth. He calmed me down then started pulling on the chain around his neck to reveal my ring.

" Troye.." I whispered.

" I wanted to keep you close to my heart, even though I didn't know where you were." He said, sliding the ring on my finger.

"Troye boy.." I squealed.

" Why don't you get into a night shirt and I will finish unpacking?" He smiled.

" I'll take them to the bathroom so I can brush my teeth then change." I said, grabbing my clothes.

I brushed my teeth and stalled as long as I could until getting dressed into shorts and a short sleeve t-shirt. I walked out to see Troye with my wedding book with the ripped out papers.

" Oh you saw that?" I asked, holding my left arm behind my back with my right hand.

" Yeah, I like your sketches." He smiled.

" There not that good, but thanks." I shrugged.

" Why are you holding your arm like that?" He asked.

" No reason." I said.

" Let me see your arm then." He said, leaning forward.

" T-Troye, I'm so s-sorry." I said, showing him my arm.

" Connor..." He gasped, covering his mouth.

" Please d-don't hate m-me." I whimpered.

He looked down at my fresh, red cuts. I felt exposed and embarrassed. I watched him look at the cuts and flicker back up at me.

" I could never hate you." He said.

He held my arm up to his face and kissed every last one.

" Where's the blade?" He asked.

" It's in the beside table." I whimpered.

" Im gonna go throw it away. You lay down and get some rest." He said kissing the top of my head.

" You're not mad?" I sniffled.

" I'm just glad I caught it before it got out of control." He smiled.

He crawled into bed, pulling me closer to him, our noses almost touching. I smiled as he kissed my nose and rested our foreheads together.

" I love you so much." I whispered, holding his hand.

" I love you too. What are we gonna do for your birthday?" He asked, sitting up.

" I don't want to do anything." I said, shaking my head.

" We are most definitely doing something." He said.

" Well then surprise me." I said.

" Ok, I will." He said, over-confident.

" I was wondering, we are so close to Australia and I wanted to tell my parents in person about the proposal, could we.." He asked, trailing off.

" I would love to go see your family." I laughed.

" Great. I will call them tomorrow then all day we can go sight seeing. Then we could come back here, get packed up, and leave for perth." He whispered.

" Mmhh." I hummed, resting my head in his chest.

" I missed this Connie." He whispered, playing with my hair.

" me too." I yawned before falling asleep.