Finding Myself; The Man in The Mirror

Chapter 38 Dr. Brandt

After my last top surgery consult, I was hesitant to try to find another doctor in fear that they might say the same thing. I reached out to someone I use to work with at Kmart and asked who they went to in hopes it be different.

They informed me on who they went to which was Dr. Brandt in Reading Pennsylvania and gave me her information so I could call.

I called was nervous but I had the appointment 6-9-25. It was a 2 hour and 26 minute drive, which I did by myself drained since I was up at 630 for a doctor's appointment at 8 for a blood pressure check  which I should probably explain that so before I get any farther let me rewind a bit. I was having pains in my chest that when I went to the doctors she ended up ordering a stress test. Well with the stress test they had to stop before I could even finish cause my blood pressure was way too high. So the doctor decided to put me on a blood pressure medication. After a week of being on it I had to go get blood work to see if anything changed. Then a week after I had to get bloodwork because they wanted to make sure my heart was good because I was looking in to getting a hysterectomy and it was put on hold cause the chest pain. So fast forward back to where I was heading to Dr. Brandts office by myself. I was worried, my anxiety was up because I feared well what if she's rude like the last one. What if I can't get the surgery? So many questions ran over and over in my mind. Going to the Readimg hospital was different that's for sure. I got there and had to wait a bit before I was called back.

The nurse that came to get me was super nice she kept calling me love bug. Not sure why but it was nice. She took me back to the room, went over stuff and she's like before I have you strip ill have Dr. Brandt come in and talk to you. She's like I like doing that so your not meeting the doctor naked right away. Which I laughed at. After I answered all her questions she had she went out to get the doctor.

Of course at this time my leg is shaking my heart is pounding out of my chest. As I sat there waiting of course the questions jumped back into my mind. I tried to remain calm. Then of course the knock on the door and it comes Dr. Brandt. Now she's fabulous, very friendly and made me feel safe there. She shoved me results of top surgery she did on others and answered what questions I wrote down. She even liked my shirt which said touched my beard and tell me I'm pretty. Wait until she sees my others. Those that know me know what I'm talking about. She's like I dealt with people that had larger bmis and their results came out fine. I don't think you'll have any issues getting top surgery.

I also did tell her how my last consultation was and she was like I definitely will not be like that. She's then like let me step out so you can get this gown on and you can become part of my slide show. So I did that then they came back in to which she's like here comes the awkward part. She had me stand up against the wall and take the gown off exposing my breasts to her. Which being trans and just exposing myself to someone that isn't my partner was weird enough. Then she took the before picture.

She said that once I make sure everything is okay after the xray that I could get top surgery in October! October of this year! I seriously felt my eyes tear up but I don't know if they noticed that or not. So as I was leaving I noticed the heart doctor's office called. So I gave a call back and apparently since my blood pressure is down that they want to try to send me for another stress test. Which means if that all goes good and they don't do the xray I could go as soon as August! Like I literally texting Lisa right way telling her all of this! Lisa was like tears of joy let it out. So that made me cry a little as I walked to my car.

Once I got to my hair I noticed something hanging on my mirror. It was a bracelet someone made that said be gay do crime! It was like a perfect ending to a wonderful day and even better with it being Pride month. I looked around to see if anyone was near by so I could thank whoever did it
Unfortunately I didn't see anyone but what they did means a lot to me. I then finally cried on my way home. This is all that I have been wanting and now my dreams are coming true!