The Bucket List >> Sabriel ✔️

37: Download A Virus Onto The FBI's Computers

"I can't fucking believe that we got to see Larry. LARRY. LARRY COMING OUT." Gabe ranted, his eyes blazing.

Sam sighed, running a hand through his hair. "I know, Gabe. You've told me this ten times in the past five minutes."

"I know but - LOOK!" Gabe screeched, pointing at the screen. The Happily music video had been uploaded, and the two boys clicked on it, both with equal eagerness.

They watched in awe as Larry sang with abandon, as they themselves waltzed around in the background, as Larry finished the song with a long-lasting kiss at the end. But Sam's eyes were fastened on the couple in the background of the pride parade, kissing sweetly and breaking apart to gaze into each other's eyes.

"Maybe we should make a video." Sam said suddenly.

"Oh?" Gabe raised an eyebrow suggestively at Sam. "Like... a sex tape?"

"Well..." Sam immediately regretted voicing his idea.

"Hey, wassup gays?" Charlie bounded into the Banter Room, grinning widely. "I watched our cheeky video, it was awesome!"

"Sam and I were discussing our sex tape."

"That's not what we were -"

"Ooh, cool! Can I watch?" Charlie smirked.

"We weren't -"

"Wait, nah. Dicks disgust me. Keep that shit away from me." Charlie wrinkled her nose and backed out, shaking her head mockingly at Sam.

Sam whined, Gabe snickering.

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Later, Sam and Gabe were in their hospital rooms, Gabe playing club penguin and Sam watching with exasperation as Gabe used bots to annoy random twelve year olds.

"SHUT UP, DEODORANT BOY!" A muffled scream came through the walls. Gabe looked at the door, grinning.

"Make sure my penguin wins a sled race, imma go see what Charlie and Kevin are doing." The trickster hopped off the bed and darted out the door, Lucifer, Emma, Balthazar, Charlie, and Kevin's screams echoing in the corridor outside.

"DAMN IT, KEVIN!"

"I'M GONNA THROW YOUR TOOTHBRUSH OUT THE WINDA!"

Sam sighed as the door closed. He dumped the laptop on Gabe's bed and swung his legs over onto the floor, only to stand on something rectangular. The moose glanced down to see a small, blue notebook underneath his foot. He swiped it up curiously, opening it up at a random page.

Last night's nightmare was alright compared to previous nights. I only saw my dad ten times, I only saw Adam five. It was short, I woke up once Adam persuaded me to kill myself -

Sam stared at the page in shock. Is this Gabe's diary? He flicked to another page.

I can't do this anymore. I know that Sam loves me, I know that all my friends and my brother loves me, but it hurts. It hurts so much and there's really nothing to live for -

Another page.

I think I'm still in love with Adam. But he's gone, and every night I cry into my pillow -

Sam is my person now, but the feelings for Adam are still lingering in the background and it hurts so fucking much and I don't know what to do I can't take this much pain -

I don't wanna feel like this anymore -

I can't do this anymore -

This is destroying me and the only way to end it is -

The door burst open, and Sam hastily shoved the notebook under Gabe's pillow. Gabe bounded into the room, grinning.

"Kevin apparently wouldn't shut up about joining Faze Clan. What a noob."

"Y-yeah. What a noob." Sam laughed nervously, rubbing the back of his neck. He eyed Gabe in concern. He seemed perfectly normal... but Sam knew that he wasn't okay. That diary had proved it to him.

Everything's gonna be alright though. Right? Sam thought as he watched Gabe dance around the room fondly. Everything's fine.

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"Wow." Gabe panted as he rolled off Sam. "WOW."

"Yeah, er." Sam reached over for the camera and paused the recording. "Cut?"

"Time to take it to Charlie, Extreme Hacker T M." Gabe cheered, shoving pants and a t-shirt on, before grabbing the camera and traipsing out the door with it.

"Wait for me for flip sake." Sam grumbled, throwing on some random clothes as well and jogging to keep up with his fiancé, limping slightly.

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Once the tape had been delivered to Charlie, who had smirked evilly at them and hacked the FBI to download it on all of their computers, the two boys returned to their hospital room, and they ended up cuddling after an intense tickle fight.

"I think I want us to get married in those woods." Sam mumbled into Gabe's hair, slowly stroking it. "You know, the clearing where we lay in the snow and made snow angels?"

"Yeah." Gabe giggled softly. He twisted round to Sam and kissed his nose sweetly, before snuggling into his chest. "That'd be great."

Sam traced his fingers over Gabe's arm, feeling the soft skin underneath his. He nuzzled his nose into Gabe's hair and closed his eyes, smelling the sweet scent of his fiancé's fluffiness. Gabe hugged around Sam's waist, cuddling the moose to him and enjoying his warmth.

"I love you." Gabe breathed into Sam's shirt.

Sam thought about the diary. The nightmares. Gabe's dad. Adam. Gabe's old feelings for Adam. How all this stuff was still haunting the boy he loved.

"I love you too." Sam whispered back, reaching down to tangle his fingers with Gabe's. "So, so much. I will give up the world for you to be happy, y'know that?"

Gabe smiled sleepily up at him. "I'd give up the world for you too, Sammich, but you are my world."

And within five short minutes, Gabe was asleep against Sam's chest. Sam rocked him gently back and forth, watching as Gabe sucked on his thumb, the picture of innocence.

"I love you." Sam whispered softly. "Please don't ever be sad. All I want is for you to be happy."

Gabe sniffled slightly in his sleep and his other hand, still grasping Sam's, tightened the tiniest bit around Sam's fingers.

"Please just be happy. For me."