365 letters

Letter 61

dear landon,

just like that after the trip to spain my freshman year went by without a question. you didn't hesitate to change your seat immediately due to "fear of heights," and it "getting worse when your by a window in the middle of the plane." your not really scared of anything, you accept things the way they are and don't bother to try to change them. i guess that's why we went wrong, you didn't bother to confront me the night you overheard me saying i don't think about you in those ways, you accepted my feelings and moved on like any sane person would. you moved on rather quickly i might say. three or so months after at the beginning of february my eyes caught you hugging her. you smiled at her as if she was the only thing in the world, i had seen you guys hanging out before and questioned it but thought nothing of it, you can't always assume someone's dating because they're opposite genders. i even might have asked chelsea about you guys only to have her say that she was new and you were being your friendly usual self. yet, when i saw you on february 14th my eyes caught you bringing her flowers as she teared up and kissed you rapidly. that was not only the first time you got detention for a week for public display of affect but the moment that you moved on, just as my heart crumbled as the tsunami pushed up against me crashing me down upon the flow as it ripped my heart out with it leaving me drained and heartless.

-clare