Lost

Chapter 19/ Jordan & Olivia

Jordan's POV

I woke up and looked around. Everyone was sleeping and it was still dark out. I saw Olivia sleeping in a sleeping bag far away from me. I didn't want to be afraid of her. I love her but she doesn't love me back.

"No one loves you, not even Carl." The voice snapped.

I got up from where I was sleeping and I went outside. I sat on the front doorstep of the church. I took a deep breath and I let the tears fall down my face.

"Jordan?" I hear Carl.

I wipe my tears away quickly and I look at him. He sighed and sat down next to me, hugging me with one of his arms.

"What are you doing out here? It's freezing." Carl stated as he rubbed my arm which was covered in goosebumps.

"He's going to hurt you. Run while everyone is sleeping, end your miserable life. End it now!" The voice in my head screams.

I push it back. I take Carl's hand and write something with my finger since I didn't have my notepad.

Go back inside, I'll be there in a second.

I smiled reassuringly. He kissed my forehead and got up. He headed back inside and I took this as my chance. I run as fast as I could. The only light I had was the moon and I could barely see.

After a while of running, I hide my tracks well and climbed a tree. I sobbed as I clutched my knife.

"Do it. Make yourself feel pain. Just like your sister did." The voice said evilly.

I didn't want to but the voice was forcing me to. I did what I said I'd never do.

"One cut, two cut, three cut four, cry for a while, then cut some more." The voice sang.

After I was done I dropped my knife. It fell to the ground with a dull 'thud' and I cried. I eventually passed out on that tree branch.

Olivia's POV

"Where's Jordan?" I asked. Carl glared at me "Outside." Jesus, she's my sister, not like I'm going to kill her.

I got up and walked outside. She wasn't there. I saw footsteps leading into the bush.

I shivered as I walked into the bush, I has a bad feeling about this. I follow the path.

I start to shiver rapidly as the trail goes colder. I notice something shiny in the ground. I kneel down and wipe away the leaves.

I pick up Jordan's blade and stand up. It's bloody. I look around "Jordan?!" I yell.

Something drops on my head and I wipe it off. Blood. I look up and see a passed out Jordan. Her arms are bloody and cut.

I fall on my ass and cover my mouth. I scream through my covered mouth. I stand up and pull her down. She falls into my arms.

She is frozen stiff. I start running back to the church as fast as I can. I run up the steps and kick the door open.

"I NEED SOME HELP, RIGHT FUCKING NOW!" I scream. The people rush up and Michonne takes her from me.

I collapse onto the ground and begin to cry. Why the hell would she do that? I stare at the scars on my wrists.

You're a terrible sister, that's why.

I try and shake the words out of my head. I'm officially going crazy.

Jordan's POV

I was wearing a white dress. I was standing in the middle of a beautiful, peaceful meadow. I saw a piano, just sitting there. Then I saw Maddy. I remember when she first taught me how to play.