Lost

Chapter 30/ Jordan & Olivia

Jordan's POV

Carl and I sat outside and kept watch for Rick and the group.

"I don't trust this Aaron guy." Carl says.

"Me either. Even though Olivia says he's friendly, it's different now. The world is different. People change." I state.

"Yeah." Carl sighs.

I rest my head on his shoulder and he rests his head on my head.

"I'm glad this world went to shit." Carl said.

"Why?" I asked.

"Because if it didn't, I would've never have met you." He whispered as he kissed the top of my head.

"Agreed." I chuckled lightly.

We just sat there and watched the walkers struggling to get out from under the fallen trees. I was getting annoyed with their moaning, so I grabbed a nearby, sturdy stick, and started stabbing them in the head.

Carl did the same and soon enough all of the fallen walkers were dead. I limped back over to where Carl and I were sitting and sat down. He soon after sat beside me.

"I love you." I say.

"I love you too." Carl replies.

We continued to sit there until we saw Rick and the rest of them. We got up and greeted them.

"He wasn't lying. But I still don't trust him." Rick says.

Carl and I nod as everyone heads back to the barn. I have to tell Olivia the good news!

Olivia's POV

I felt someone nudging me so I woke up. I blinked a few times and saw Jordan staring at me. She was smiling really bright as I sat up.

"Well, Rick says he wasn't lying, so we can go." She says. I smile and kiss the top of her head. I grab my crutch and hand Jordan my cane.

"You can use it, it fits you better then me." She laughs a little as we walk to see everyone else. Rick unites Aaron.

Everyone began to walk outside. I see Carl help Jordan and I smile. I walk up to Rick and look at him. Just by looking at him, he seems like he's changed.

I hold onto his arm and he looks at me. "Are you okay?" I ask. "Yeah, I'm just worried about you."

"Why are you worried about me?" I ask. He touches my arm with his other hand. "You pushing yourself to the limits, you need to take it easy."

I sigh "How am I supposed to do that? If you haven't noticed, there are dead walking around." He stops while the group continues on.

He puts his hands on my shoulders. "I can't loose you, not after Lori." He mutters the last part. Who is or I guess was Lori?

Maybe it's better not to ask. "You won't loose me." I turn back to the group to see Daryl looking at us. He looks distraught.

He turns around and keeps walking with the group. Rick helps me to the group once again. Eventually we hit the main road and see an RV.

We all jump in and drive off to this so called 'safe haven'.

Jordan's POV

I sat with Carl and as we drove I got more anxious. What if there is girls there? Will Carl forget about me and move on? Why would he want an abused, ugly and broken girlfriend? He could do so much better than me.

"Jordan? You okay?" Carl asks.

I nod my head and distance myself a bit from Carl. I laid my head on the window and fell asleep.

Dream~

"What is wrong with you?! He doesn't love you! No one does!" The voice was back.

All of my fears and bad memories came flooding back to me. Those times I was thrown in the basement to starve. When Olivia was locked up in the attic to wither away. My so called parents' beatings. Moving, getting abused more, the bullying, everything.

I squeezed my head and cried out in pain. I could feel all of it. All of a sudden I was surrounded by mirrors. Each had a different word on it in red.

Useless, ugly, fat, stupid, whore.

I turned around and Olivia was there. I ran to her and embraced her into a hug.

"You ruined my life!" She growled as she shoved me.

I fell on my butt. I looked at her with sad eyes.

"I-I'm sorry I didn't mean to..." I whimpered.

"They weren't always like that. They were good people and they spoiled me rotten. When you came along they lost all of their money and slipped into depression. That depression turned into rage, towards us, towards you." Olivia spat.

"I had to protect you because you were too weak! I had to do everything!" She screamed.

"I'm sorry!" I sobbed.

"Sorry?" Olivia laughed.

"Sorry doesn't cut it." When she said cut, my arms started burning.

I looked down at my arms and saw cuts and blood.

"This is what I had to live through all because of you!" Olivia bellowed.

"All because of you!" Olivia shouted.

"All because of you."

"All because of YOU!!" She screamed one last time before I shot awake.

I breathed heavily and noticed we were still driving. I sighed and closed my eyes once again, going back to sleep.

Olivia's POV

I sat in the back of the RV with Rick. I noticed Daryl kept shooting small dirty looks at us. Why is he doing that?

I looked back at Rick. He was in deep thought, I knew that because he had his hand positioned on his nose and his eyes were closed.

I nudged him a little and he looked at me. "What's the matter?" He asked. I rested my head on his shoulder. "Can I ask you a question?" I ask.

He nods and holds my hand. "Who's Lori?" I ask. He takes a deep breath "She was my wife, before all this." I nod slowly.

"What happened?" I ask. "She died during childbirth, unfortunately the child died too." He was tearing up by this point.

I pulled him closer and gave him a kiss on the cheek. "I'm sorry Rick." He hugs me tighter and I hear the steady beat of his heart.

"When did it happen?" I ask. Hey now! I'm full of questions okay. "When we first found the prison, maybe two, three months after you came."

Okay, so let me get this straight. His wife and child pass. Then three months later I happen? Does that qualify as a rebound?

"I'm sorry, I just wanted to know." He nods. "It's okay." I try and adjust myself, but I wince from the pain in my leg.

"Need help?" Rick asks. I nod and he helps me move my leg. I lean on his shoulder once again and and slowly my eyes begin to droop.

"Goodnight Olivia." I hear Rick say.