The Pain Of Their Presence - Sequel to Sound of Their Presence

Chapter Nine: Because of Him

Cheyenne's POV

    .Alone in the park, at around midnight, I sit beneath a clear sky. The starts shine bright and extra light is provided by the nearly full moon. I pull a razor blade from my pocket. If I have lost the person I love officially, to some mortal at that, then physical pain is all I can think of to distract me. Besides, I need to figure out more about unicorn healing processes.

    Wounds I gain in unicorn form seem to heal fastest. Those that I gain when human don't seem to heal as fast, but are faster than regualr humans. I want to understand . . . 

    I rake the blade across my wrist, thrice. I pull out the newspaper I had been saving from Portugul, about the nightclub. I look at the picture of Shane, as his fist connects with Ichabod's face, the British scumbag that drugged me after he had his way with Jillain.

    I can't help the tears that stream down my face, as I think about the times when Shane had still been mine. Maybe I couldn't control him or really call him mine, but I didn't have to watch him suck face with some random school girl. 

    Now was the time for Kelly Clarckson.

    "I will not make the same mistakes that you did

I will not let myself

Cause my heart so much misery

I will not break the way you did,

You fell so hard

I've learned the hard way

To never let it get that far

Because of you

I never stray too far from the sidewalk

Because of you

I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt

Because of you

I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me

Because of you

I am afraid

I lose my way

And it's not too long before you point it out

I cannot cry

Because I know that's weakness in your eyes

I'm forced to fake

A smile, a laugh everyday of my life

My heart can't possibly break

When it wasn't even whole to start with

Because of you

I never stray too far from the sidewalk

Because of you

I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt

Because of you

I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me

Because of you

I am afraid

I watched you die

I heard you cry every night in your sleep

I was so young

You should have known better than to lean on me

You never thought of anyone else

You just saw your pain

And now I cry in the middle of the night

For the same damn thing

Because of you

I never stray too far from the sidewalk

Because of you

I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt

Because of you

I try my hardest just to forget everything

Because of you

I don't know how to let anyone else in

Because of you

I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty

Because of you

I am afraid

Because of you

Because of you"

Except, the last line is not just sung by me.