Cheyenne's POV
"What I mean," Shane tells me, "Is that first, you broke up with Lysander and basically told me to take a back seat. I need a bit to be alone. I need to sort this all out!"
"All of what?!"
"You also claimed to need time to yourself!"
"Well, I tooks some time!"
"You took one night, Cheyenne. One night!"
"Why are you yelling at me?"
"I don't know how to explain this to you! You are so certain that we have to be together, and I need time!"
"So you don't want to be with me? Is that it? Just please- Can you please, please just be straight forward with me? For once?" I am so very confused. I mean, one minute the boy loves me- But the next . . . Does he truly hate me?
"Cheyenne . . . Just- I don't know anymore, D*mn it!"
"Shane," I feel tears threatening to stream down my face. I close my eyes in a feeble attempt to keep the salty droplets from peering through my dark lashes. "Why are you swearing at me?" At this point I can't help the sobs anymore. He lets go of my wrists, which I had forgotten he was clutching so tightly. As he tries to pull me into an embrace, I back away, my wrists now having red finger markings. Shane tries to pull me closer, as he tries to calm me, and I know that we have made a break through. Problem is, I am too far gone.
So I turn to the one alternative I have. The one way I can really, really cope with everything. WIth all the sh!t that happens in my life: I choose to sing.
"If I could give you the world
On a silver platter
Would it even matter?
You'd still be mad at me
If I can find in all this
A dozen roses
That I would give to you
You'd still be miserable
'Cause in reality
I'm gon' be who I be
And I don't feel no faults
For all the lies that you bought
You can try as you may
Bring me down when I say
That it ain't up to you
Go on do what you do "
I sing Glee's version of Hate on Me Hater.
"Hate on me hater
Now or later
Cause I'm gonna do me
You'll be mad baby
Go head and hate on me hater
I'm not afraid of
What I got I paid for
You can hate on me"
The hot tears on my cheeks hardly register, as I sing right into Shane's ears.
"Ooh if I gave you peaches
Out of my own garden
And I made you a peach pie
Would you slap me high?
Wonder if I gave you diamonds
Out of my own room
Would you feel the love in that
Or ask why not the moon
If I gave you sanity
For the whole of humanity
And had all the solutions
For the pain and pollution
No matter where I live
Despite the things I give
You'll always be this way
So go ahead and... "
Suddenly, Shane has somehow pulled me into his lap, my red jeans rubbing against his faded ones.
I continue to sing, regardless of the way this boy disarms my determination. Regardless of the way he destroys my confidence. Maybe I could still walk awa with my dignity . . .
"Hate on me hater
Now or later
Cause I'm gonna do me
You'll be mad baby
Hate on me hater
Now or later
Cause I'm gonna do me
You'll be mad baby
You cannot
Hate on me
Cause my mind is free
Feel my destiny
So Shall it Be You cannot
Hate on me
Cause my mind is free
Feel my destiny
So Shall it Be "
Shane grips my chin gently between his thumb and forefinger, looking into my eyes.
"You cannot
Hate on me
Cause my mind is free
Feel my destiny
So Shall it Be, "
The tears have dried thouroughly on my cheeks by now.
"Hate on me hater
Now or later
Cause I'm gonna do me
You'll be mad baby" I finsh the song.
Before I have the chance to fight my way out of Shane's lap, although I have already come upi with the resolve to stay away from him from now on, Shane leans in to me.
I let out a little squeak as he presses his lips to mine.
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The Pain Of Their Presence - Sequel to Sound of Their Presence
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