Tame The Bad Boy

Chapter 55: Anna

Justice

Luke on his knees at my feet half naked, holding me with his intense gaze is the most heartbreaking sight I've ever seen — more heartbreaking than seeing him and his ex, kissing. The jealousness has evaporated in an instant and instead I'm feeling that my breath catches in my throat. This is so wrong.

"Luke please, tumayo ka na" I said desperately at him but he's just staring at me impassively with his tearstained face. He didn't move even a bit. I let out a harsh breath  and kneel down in front of him despite na nakahubad ako so magkaharap na kaming dalawa. At this, we're on the same level. Equals.

His gaze followed me atleast pero hindi pa rin siya nagsasalita. Hindi ko na alam ang gagawin ko. I didn't expect that he'll come this far. My heart squeezes and twists. What have I done to him? God knows that I didn't want this to happen.

"Please talk to me. Please say something. You're scaring me to death.." I whispered as panic surges inside me. His face softens at that kaya kahit paano nakahinga ako nang maluwag.

"Anong gusto mong sabihin ko, Anna Bernice Torres? Na pumapayag ako sa gusto mo? Na maghiwalay tayo at sumama ako sa ex ko. Ganun ba ha? Yun ba?" he said. His voice menacingly quiet.

I just looked down at my knotted fingers together as hot tears started pouring down my face.

"Well.. Maybe.. Maybe I was just jealous.. I don't know kasi kahit ako nagugulahan din sa sarili ko.. Maybe.. Maybe.. I thought after she kissed you, everything will come back to you. Magkakabalikan na kayo" I close my eyes as the painful memory of his ex kissing him gawks at me.

"Maybe I was just scared dahil alam kong minahal mo siya. Minahal na gaya nang pagmamahal na ginagawa mo sa'kin ngayon. Maybe.. Maybe I was just scared that you will just leave me since nandyan naman na siya. Ang babaeng minahal mo to the extent that you almost take your life nung mawala siya. You can't blame me. Can you? Dahil unang una walang wala ako kung ikukumpara sa kanya. She's beautiful, rich and.. Minahal mo"

When I've said those words that's when my real problem hits me. I have always wondered why he likes me gayong napakalayo ko sa mga babaeng naikama niya at kahit pa sa ex niya. I just don't get it. I've never understood why of all the girls swooning over him ako ang pinili niya. An average, poor looking girl who has nothing to offer him but herself.

Hindi pa rin siya nagsasalita. He continued looking at me like before. I breathed harshly at that. Why won't he just talk?!

"Are you going to kneel here all day long? Well if that's the case then sige magpatigasan tayong dalawa!" I snapped at him. Unti unti nang sumasakit ang mga tuhod ko but I don't care. I just looked back at his serious expression na nakatingin din sa'kin.

It seems like an eon passed already when finally he let out a heavy sigh and reached my face. I smiled at that as fresh tears threaten to come out that I desperately stop.

"I was so scared that you will leave, Anna. Please wag mo na ulitin yun. I died a thousand deaths when you said that you want a break up. Pansamantala o permanente man yan wala akong pakialam. It doesn't have any difference to me. What do I have to do to make you believe na hinding hindi kita iiwan? Why do you always expect the worst for us? Ilang beses ko bang dapat patunayan na mahal na mahal na mahal kita?"

I didn't answer as guilt started eating me alive. Kung iisipin ko, napakalaki na ng kasalanan ko sa kanya. I have always second guess him dahil umpisa pa lang iniisip ko na na hindi kami tatagal. And to make it worse, ang pagbabalik pa ng ex niya. Though at that part, alam kong wala akong ibang sisihin kung hindi ang sarili ko. And I feel like the worst person alive for that. I have nothing to blame but me dahil umpisa pa lang may choice naman na ako na wag sundan ang mga kaibigan ni Brie at umabot kami sa ganito ngayon.