Envy - Norway or Denmark

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Norway x OC / Norway x BFF! Reader / Reader x Denmark

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You laid on the floor of the abandoned house with Lukas. "One day we're going to live in this house." you told Lukas as you stared at the ceiling. Lukas mumbled an agreement before adding to your dream.

~.~

Finally you had time with Lukas since you first started at the Secondary School. Lukas sighed. "What's up?" you asked. "How do I tell a girl I love her?" he asked. Your heart sped up. Did he love you like you loved him? Maybe he's confessing like they did in your romance novel. "Who're you going to tell?" you asked. "Alina." responded Lukas.

That made your heart ache. He didn't love you. Of course he'd love Alina. She did everything you did and more. She was much more beautiful that you'd ever be. A real beauty queen. "She's so beautiful, smart, funny, kind. I think... no- I know I'm in in love with her. I-I want to marry her one day. Do you think I should tell her?" asked Lukas looking over at you with large eyes glistening with hope and excitement. Your heart felt like it had shattered. The Norwegian teen was in love with someone else. He talked about her as if he was already marrying her in his mind.

"Yeah, you should tell her as soon as possible." you retorted. He got up and bit his farewells and to wish him luck on getting to court Alina. The gorgeous ice skating, Russian student Alina. Lukas didn't need luck. He himself was charming, smart, witty, funny, handsome and mysterious. Just anything any girl could possibly want. Tears escaped your eyes as you hoped their relationship didn't last longer than a few weeks.

'Someday maybe I'll know,
What's behind that window,
And I'll be on the inside, 
Looking out at the lonely night.' 

You were stood outside the old house that you and Lukas used to play in. It was you who came up with the idea that Lukas and you should buy it when you're older. When you would be boyfriend and girlfriend. That was your childish dream. You had everything planned out. Though you bemused yourself that you would some day know what's behind that simple pane of glass. You dreamed that you would be on the inside waiting for Lukas to get home as you stared out into the lonely night sky. 

'And I'll be by your side,
We'll hang the Christmas lights,
Get lost in better times,
If only in my mind.'

As you thought more about your dream, you thought you could see it. You could see you and Lukas hanging Christmas lights. You'd sit next to him by the fire and get lost in childhood memories. Though that clearly wasn't the reality of this. Lukas was doing that with some other girl. If only in my mind. You mused to yourself. 

'Feel my heart start bursting with envy,
Cuz I'm still in the dark,
Feel my heart start bursting with envy,
Cuz I'm still in the dark.'

"Ready to go in?" asked Mathias. He was your current fling. You endured the dinner that Lukas' fiancee had cooked. It was nice but you couldn't help but feel envy boil up in you and start to consume you. This should've been you. This should've been you being engaged to Lukas. You were still in the dark past of your childhood. You congratulated Lukas' girlfriend on her pregnancy but that only the envy grow stronger. How dare Lukas fall in love with someone. How dare Alina steal Lukas away from you. 

'Someday maybe I'll learn,
The comfort of strangers,
And I won't feel the winter's bite,
Looking out at the lonely night.'

You were at Lukas' wedding being the maid of honour. A winter wedding. Snow and all. You slipped away from the party and out into the bitter cold night. Leaning against the railings you couldn't help but tear up. All this was what you wanted as soon as Lukas had said it those many years ago.

"Maybe you'll finally learn the comfort of strangers being alone like this." remarked a voice holding love and warmth. You turned around as soon as a jacket was placed on your shoulders. You saw Mathias. It's been a year since you had broken up with him. "Listen, Y/N! I know you've been in love with Lukas since you were kids but I just want you to that I've loved you longer than you have him." remarked Mathias.

Within seconds you had pulled him into a kiss. Though when you pulled away, you ran off. You needed to think. So you did just that while watching the stars glitter in the lonely night. 

'Cuz I'll be by your side,
We will hang the Christmas light,
Get lost in better times,
If wishes come true,
I'd be in there with you.'

It was another Christmas and of course you were invited round to Lukas' for Christmas. You saw him hanging the Christmas lights up over the fire place to create a magical effect. In your dream you were doing that right beside him. You watched as his wife came through from the kitchen and he smiled as he was passed his son. His 1 year old son.

He kissed Alina whilst settling his hand on her stomach. "Ready?" asked the voice. You nodded and felt Mathias' hand take yours and lead you to the house. If wishes came true then you'd be in there with Lukas but it'd be you who would be his wife.

"You're glowing! So beautiful." complimented Mathias to his sister in law. "Thank you Mathias. Welcome to our humble abode." responded Alina smiling. She was shorter than you just a little bit.

'Feel my heart start bursting with envy,
Cuz I'm still in the dark,
Feel my hearts start bursting with envy, 
Cuz I'm still in the dark.'

When dinner was served, you were all sat around the table enjoying the meal. "You're getting married?" asked Lukas as he caught sight of the ring around your finger. You smiled and held Mathias' hand. "Yeah he asked me a few months ago." you responded. You were happy and in love with the Danish male but whenever you looked at pictures of Lukas with Alina, your heart felt like it was bursting with all the envy you had felt over the years. 

'Feel my heart start bursting with envy,
Cuz I'm still in the dark,
Feel my heart start bursting with envy,
Cuz I'm still in the dark.'

You were dancing slowly to the music surrounding you and your newly wedded husband Mathias. Nothing was wrong at all. He led the dance with ease. "I love you, my Queen." he murmured holding you closer to him. You smiled though you were jealous of how calm he was. Mathias suddenly dipped you into a kiss. When you pulled back for air, you murmured back to your husband in a hushed tone. "I love you too, my King." you had mouthed against the skin of his neck. You could feel yourself get riled up with envy. Lukas had taken your whole relationship with Mathias in a calm manner.

You didn't react that way at all with his engagement. You treated it like it was a curse. You didn't know what you had wanted to happen. You wanted Lukas and you to live out all those dreams you both put together. Though you now had Mathias. He wiped the envy right out of your veins. Instead he replaced it with love.

He loved you and you loved him.

Mathias laid you softly on the silk sheets. Muttering nothing but how much he loves you and how much he wanted to show you that. A thought crossed your mind. Mathias was and forever will be the love of your life now that you realised Lukas was more of a brother to you.


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