Book 1: Sore (Completed)

Chapter 3: I Just Had Sex

Pilit niya akong tinutulungan habang pilit ko rin siyang tinutulak palayo.

And now he's holding my arms.
I feel like I'm being posesed. Pinipilit kong kumuwala sa mga hawak niya.

"Vea, lasing ka na." Sabi niya sa akin.

Nung nakapasok na kami sa isang kwarto. Hind ko alam na may kwarto na pala.

Gumagana pa naman ang utak ko pero inaamin ko na lasing na lasing na ako. Nakakahilo. Nakakasuka. Ang init.

"Vea, matulog ka na. It's already 4 in the morning." He said.

And i thought i was still at the bar. I faced eros and raised my right hand and said...

"Kuya, isa pa pong beer." Seryoso kong sabi.

Lumuwag ang hawak niya sa akin dahilan para mapunta ako sa kama at mapahiga.

I heard eros laughed hard.

"You're so funny, sweet."

Sweet.

It was our endearment. Before.

Nakahiga lang ako at napapikit. Naiinitan ako. Mabilis kong inabot ang buttons ng polo ko.

"Shit ang init." I murmured.

Napansin kong nasa sahig pa si eros na hawak hawak ang tiyan na halos mamatay na sa katatawa.

Sa wakas at na-unbutton ko na lahat ang buttons and before i could finally took my polo off. His hand stopped me.

It was warm. It feels like home.

Hindi ko napansin na seryoso na naman pala siya at nasa tabi na siya sa akin. Holding my hand.

"What?" Pinanliitan ko siya ng mata.

"Don't get naked."

"Bawal ba?" I asked.

He was speechless.

"Okay. Do it. Do whatever you want." Sabi niya at tinitigan ako sa mga mata ko.

Binitawan na niya ang kamay ko pero di na ako makagalaw.

"Eros."

"Sa sala lang ako. If you need something, just call me. Okay?" Said he.

I stared at him. Down his lips. Down his neck.

What the fcvk is going on with me.
I'm having this dirty thoughts.
Dirty thoughts that we've done before. Here.

In this room.

We've done it here.

Before.

"Okay?" He repeated.

I just look at him.
At nung tumalikod na siya para umayos ng upo at tumayo.

Kaagad kong kinuha ang kamay niya at buong lakas ko siyang hinila pabalik sa akin.

And now he's on top of me.

"Vea." He whispered.

My breathing is getting heavier.

He's so close.

Ramdam na ramdam ko ang hininga niya.

"Eros."

"Vea."

Sinunggaban niya ako ng halik at mainit kong tinanggap lahat ng halik niya.

It was both slow and fast.
It was hot and strong.
I'm getting drunk.

I left out a small moan when he rubbed his body against me.

"Fuck." He said between our kisses.

I ran my hands through his hair when his kisses went down to my neck.

Pareho kaming malalim ang hininga.
Pareho kaming uhaw na uhaw sa halik ng isat-isa.

He reached for my bra's hook.

He held my nipple and went back to my lips from my neck.

I crossed my legs on his waist. And since I'm wearing a skirt. I can't spread it enough.

We were both out of words. Tanging ungol at hinga lang ang pumapaibabaw sa kwartong ito.

He unbuckled his belt and i took off my skirt.

"Vea." And now he's stopping me.

"Do it." I commanded.

He reached for his side table and now he has the rubber with him.

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Nakaramdam ako ng mga kamay sa tiyan ko na para bang niyayakap ako.

Amoy vanilla.
Amoy pancakes.
Amoy---

F u c k.

Idinilat ko ang mga mata ko.

"For the love of all things beautiful, why are you sleeping... With... me?" Mabilis kong sabi sa lalaking iniipit ako sa mga kamay niya.

Even his leg is on my legs.

He's a giant!

"Eros?"

"Vea..." He mentioned. Calmly. Ang kalmado niya. Kalmadong kalmado. Pakiramdam ko kaninapa siya gising.

Napatingin ako sa paligid.

This is his fucking room.

And we are sleeping in his room.

I gulped.

"Shit." I said.

"Vea." He said.

"Shit."

Napaupo ako at napahila sa mga kumot para takpan ang dibdib ko. I'm freaking naked.

Siya din.

"Shit, eros. Ano to?" Naguguluhan kong sabi. I looked at him. And he wasn't smiling. He's serious. Plus the sunlight hits his face. Might as well it's distracting.

Biglang sumakit ang ulo ko kaya napahawak ako. I'm trying to recall what happen last night.

Naramdaman ko ang mga kamay niya na pumupulopot sa bewang ko. He's cuddling with me right now.

Nanatili akong nakayuko at inis na napapikit sa mga naalala ko sa nangyari kagabi.

Naramdaman ko naman ngayon ng ulo niya na sumasandal sa balikat ko. He planted a kiss on my bare shoulder.

Ilang mura na ang lumabas sa bibig ko nang maalala ko na talaga lahat.

Fuck.

I just had sex with my ex-boyfriend.