In Memory of a Dope Boy

Chpt. 23

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After packing a small bag of necessities. I started walking down from my house, and called up Jacob. It rung and it rung again..., stopping at the fourth time.

"Hello?"

"Hey.." I said, clearing my thoat to talk properly.

"Hey.." he replied.

"Are you busy?" ...please don't say yes.

"Nah, I'm in the house. Why?"

"I just need someone to talk to right now, you think I could...stay over for the night"

"Oh okay, sure"

"Alright, I'll be there in ten" I told him before hanging up.

·15 minutes later·

"Are you hungry?" he asked, watching me sit down on his couch.

"No, I'm fine" I said, playing with my fingers.

"So uh,...what's wrong?" he walks up to me on the couch.

"I'm sad.." I confessed.

"Why is that?" he takes a seat next to me.

"I miss my parents..."

"Oh sorry, when is ya dad supposed to be getting out again though?"

"I don't know. I think he got even more time now unfortunately"

"Oh.....I'm sorry babe" He said softly.

I looked down and started pulling at my hair. I was really bummed out over all of this. That's the one thing that can still make me cry til this day. I just wonder how it would've felt to been able to have a normal family. Its a shame that I'll probably never know.

I just ask myself why did it have to be both my mom and dad. Why would someone even go after my mom. She did nothing to anyone, she was so sweet and loving of everything. All she wanted was to be here with her girls and some bastard ruined all of it. Like how can you kill a mother of three young kids and live your life after that.

I covered my face again and started crying all over again.

"Awwe don't cry yo" he pulled me into his arms.

I cried and gasped for air in his shirt from it, laying my head down on his chest while his arms wrapped around my back.

"Stop crying....,okay. Just be positive about the situation"

"Ain't shit positive about it" I cursed.

"Maybe there is and you just don't understand it yet" he said. "I mean if you still lived in L.A., we probably wouldn't know each other...."

"You're saying that like we are together now..."

"I'm just trying to show you some positivity...at least some"

"So you're a positivity, huh?" I sat up and wiped my eyes.

"You are to me"

"Oh" I blushed.

"You know I still love you.." he said, wiping my face for me.

"I still love you too but...we can't--um"

"We can't be together?" he guessed.

"Mm mm" I shook my head no. ..not for right now at least😶