Fandom Imagines

Star trek

Fandom: Star Trek

Character: Bones

Title: Don't let go

* warning: mentions of self harm *

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Y/N's POV
The familiar tune of my alarm clock rings, I look st myself in the mirror wishing,  I never woke up in the first place.  Before my shift I put on a little make up, trying to cover my "imperfections", hoping not to get called out for having them.

I  decided to join the fleet to escape earth try to get away from my family, who were only related to me by DNA. I was never like my family, after my mom passed my dad, became the town drunk only coming home to hit my brother and I. Once my brother got his license, he ran away from our broken family. Leaving me with my father. Once I heard about the fleet, I knew it was a way to start new, a way to forget my past, but that didn't happen.
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After tying my h/c hair into a high ponytail, I walk out of my quarters, ready for the insults. I don't know why everyone on the Enterprise hates me, I never did anything to anyone. I walk past a red shirt who says, " you don't need all that make up, either way your still gonna look like trash." He shoves past me laughing. I stare at my feet, as I walk to the medbay. Setting some files down on Bones' desk. After that I sit down at my cluttered desk, papers stacked up everywhere.
" DAMMIT! Y/N I thought I told you these go to Jim!" Bones, one of my few friends on the enterprise lets out an angry sigh. I scramble up from my desk, papers falling into the floor. I grab the papers rushing out of the medbay. The papers go flying as someone shoves past me, " watch out dumb bitch." He's right you just are stupid. Completely, absolutely stupid .You can't even bring a stack of papers to Jim, you're useless. The metallic doors of the bridge open, Pavel immediately laughing at me, " it'z zlike your trying to zook zlike trash." The boy who looks so kind, tears me down.
" I know right," I look at the yellow shirted woman, her eyes hard,mocking gaze "pigs  even smell better than her." I turn around, tears threaten to fall. I drop the files. " I can't handle this anymore!" A loud whisper escapes your lips.
" Could that uniform be any smaller?"
" She's such a slut." Whispers fly around the room. I run back into the elevator, tears flowing. I'm nothing. Why should I even be alive.

Instead of heading back to the medbay, you run straight to your quarters. You're stupid, so so stupid for thinking you can have a nice life.
I grab a knife off of the counter, running the edge, along on wrists.
You deserve this. One for being fat, one for being ugly and another for not smart enough.
" y/n your so stupid for thinking that anyone can ever love you."
I run the blade over my wrists, multiple times, my eyes grow heavy, everything goes black.

3 rd person ' POV

"Jim have you seen Y/N?" The usually grump Doctor asks, walking into the elevator

" No," Jim says pressing a button, " why?" His eyebrows knit together.

" I told her to bring some papers to you and she hasn't come back." Bones stares at the ground, bad situations running through his mind. " I'm worried about Y/N she hasn't been acting like her self lately." Bones says.

Bones POV
" I'm sure she's fine." Jim and I walk into the bridge. Papers are scattered all over the floor, some with damp spots, big enough to be tears. Jim walks up to Sulu, "what happened here?"
I can't handle this anymore. I