The Day She Let Go | ✔️

• to understand •

The next morning when Alyssa was taking some books out of her locker, she saw a crowd forming on the tarmac outside the school. She didn't need to look again to know who it was. William Harvey and his best friend, Jacob Manroe.

Before he could enter the corridor, she spun around walking as far away from him as possible. But he caught up and grabbed her by the wrist spinning her back around. A crowd was forming around them and Alyssa didn't like it. He asked her where she was yesterday morning. He said he had been waiting at the West Gate of the park.

Alyssa couldn't believe it. He had actually come. She hadn't bothered to check the other gates of the park yesterday morning and naturally assumed that he's forgotten. Part of her was tentative to believe him. For all she knew, he could be lying.

But she agreed.

She couldn't help it no matter how hard she tried.

Alyssa agreed that she must have missed him.

She agreed for a lift home.

She agreed to welcome more pain.

And it sure did arrive.

Once the bell rang at the end of the day, she waited for him to come in the car park and he did. But not alone. Beside him was a petite little blonde with her hair in a plait. Her pale blue eyes neared a uncannily resemble to the colour of the sky that day. On a bright summer day. My eyebrows furrowed. She didn't look like one of the girls he would take home for the night. She looked very much naive to everything.

He explained to her that she was Brianna Cooper and had agreed to tutor him for Chemistry since he was failing. Alyssa smiled tight lipped at her although the strong emotion brewing in her, was far from friendly.

She's done nothing wrong to you.

And Alyssa didn't understand that feeling of jealousy. She had never minded when he had been flirting or making out with any other girls. So why did she care so much now? It didn't make sense.

But she reminded herself that this didn't matter to her at all. Alyssa thought to herself that she needed to leave the picture as soon as possible. She was never meant to be in it.

The morning after, he picked her up again before dropping her home again during the evening. Gradually, it started to become a routine and it would be a blatant lie to say that Alyssa wasn't beginning to enjoy it. She knew she shouldn't be but she was, well, having fun. Sometimes, if they both had a free period, they'd both go out to grab a bite to eat.

Every single night, Alyssa would cry knowing that she'd fallen into the trap that day. She promised herself that she'd stop herself tomorrow.

Yet every single morning, she'd break that promise.

When she was going to the toilets at break the next day, she heard sobbing from one of the cubicals. She hesitantly knocking on the door, before speaking to the girl that was in the other side.

"I'm so stupid," she heard the girl say once Alyssa had promised that nobody else was in the toilets. "Why do I always do this? Why do I always make myself go for the ones I can't have? Why? God, and I'm supposed to be the nerd of the school. If I were clever enough I'd know how to make the right choices!"

Alyssa felt like it was her inner self speaking to her. She understood. "It's alright. I know that you don't really know who I am but come out so we can talk properly. I promise that nobody is here..." she requested at the sound of the girls shaky voice, remembering to keep her voice gentle.

"I can't. You'll laugh at me. Everyone will as soon as they find out that a nobody like me's fallen for the Willia-"

The other girl stops abruptly as if realising her mistake. "It's alright, I promise. We can sort everything out together. I won't laugh at you, I swear! I used to do the same too, don't worry. It's just a bit hard to talk to you when there's a door in the way." The girl didn't reply. Alyssa sighed, "Well, if you want I'll tell you a secret. I too once fell-"

The door opened and a head peeked out slowly. Alyssa held back a gasp as she came face to face with Brianna Cooper. The little blonde girl with the plait.