Silence // (Lashton)

chapter thirty-three

"Silence"

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Song: A Year Without Rain by Selena Gomez

Ashton POV

I haven't felt any hands but Luke's mother.

Not a kiss on my lips. It's been a week now. I've had my surgery two weeks ago and I have a bandage around my head I hope soon they take this off and hopefully see!

Maybe there's a chance to see again.

I want to see to see my boyfriend's face. I can't hear the doctor's voice and say about my surgery I hope it's successful and by the time I get this bandage off me

But I'm worried about Luke right now, where is he? Where can he be? I hope he's not forgetting about me because I can't be fix rapidly. Does he hates me now? I don't want him to hate me.

It feels like it's been several days without touching him.. Knowing that Luke's hands touching on mine lets me knows it's him.. But he hasn't touched me.. My hands feels so alone without his fingers intertwining mine.

It's not fair. My lips so dry and my skin so cold.. Luke holds me to feel his warmth, his lips makes my lips feel moister I hope that makes some sense.

It's not the same now

I feel..

Alone.

I'm just here thinking the worse things I have in my mind but I know he'll come back to me for me and touch me feel my skin like he always does. Smell my hair imagining his smile appearing because that's what he likes to do. I miss those dates when he tells me my hair is getting too long I should cut it and I would always say no and makes him pour because he likes my shirt hair.

Now I can't hear that.

Or see.

It's killing me inside me.

Where's my Lukey! Where's his kisses and hugs and cuddles? Where's my boyfriend I'm dying I need him he's my hero! Where is he!

Where are you?

Where can you be hiding my from me? Where are you Luke?

Where the hell are you when I need you the most? You can't just leave me here abandon? Are you moving on?

No please..

I need you Luke! Where are you!

Where are you at?..

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(A/N): I know that was kind of short.

So 5SOS are coming to my city (Dallas, TX) next year in August for #RockOutWithYourSocksOut and of course I won't have any money to go..

There goes my dream going down the pipes..

Anyways, have a great day stay awesome bros! *brofist*