Conquerors of the New World ✓

CNW 41: His Feelings

Hanggang ngayon ay patuloy pa ring gumugulo sa akin ang pinag usapan namin kanina. Mabilis lumipas ang oras at nabalitaan ko nalang na pabalik na pala sila Dustine ngunit ako'y wala pa rin sa sarili. Hindi ako makapaniwala… no, ayokong paniwalaan. Hindi pwedeng magkagusto sa'kin si Stanley dahil… hindi ko alam kung masusuklian ko iyon.

Mali. Dahil hindi ko iyon masusuklian.

Syempre, sana'y una pa lang ay nasuklian ko na, 'di ba? Pero hindi eh. I only treat him as my older brother— the brother who'll take care his own sister, wala ng mas hihigit pa. Sa lahat ng pagsasama namin ay inakala ko na talagang gan'on lang sya sa'kin dahil nga ‘little sister’ nya ako. Hindi ko naman ineexpect na may malalim na feeling pala.

I know him as a casanova, a womaniser, but it doesn't lessen the fact that he's a good guy. Alam kong darating rin iyong taong mamahalin si Stan katulad ng pagmamahal na ibibigay nya dito, nakakalungkot lang dahil hindi ako iyon, at dahil hindi ko kayang suklian ang nararamdaman nya ngayon.

Hindi ko parin alam kung totoo ang mga sinabi nila kanina, na may gusto sa akin si Stanley pero kung tutuusin, kung magbabaliktanaw ako sa lahat ng mga ginagawa nya sa akin, kahit pilit ko iyong itanggi, pati sarili ko'y napapa-oo— na may gusto nga sa'kin si Stanley. Those gestures, I thought he's just like that because he's a womaniser, but I never thought that there was deeper meaning from his actions he's treating me.

Akala ko din kasi noon ay mas protective lang si Stanley sa akin, hindi ko namalayang… may gusto pala ito.

Now, I can't remove that thought in my mind. It was like my innocent was tainted and now, all I could ever think was something like that. Pakiramdam ko'y may magbabago. Pakiramdam ko'y maaawkward ako. Huwag naman sana.

I really need to talk to Dustine laters.

Hindi naman ako nagtagal sa paghihintay. Dumating rin sila na syang pinangungunahan ni Alpha at ni Dustine. Tulad ng dati ay malalakas pa rin ang kanilang dating. I even saw Stanley looking at me— in which, I unconsciously averted my gaze which… I don't know why. But my eyes travelled to the guy beside Alpha. Kumunot ang noo ko nang mamukhaan ito.

Valord?

It was the familiar gray and white armor— his armors are much different from both Dustine and Alpha who only wear light armor. Si Valord ay medyo may pagkabulk ang armor nito lalo na sa bandang dibdib. You know the typical Knight's armor? Gan'on ang sa kanya. Ang pinagkaiba lang ay lancer ang hawak nito at may isang espada na nakasabit sa kanyang likuran.

“We saw them on the way and we thought why not a joint party?” Dustine explained when he saw confusions on our face. I sighed. Dagdag nanaman.

“Mind if we join you?” Valord said. He's even smirking— his signature smirk. Iyong ngisi na para bang laging may pinaplano. Isa pa 'tong hindi mapagkakatiwalaan, eh.

But we, being professionals, we shook our head.

Ngayon ko lang napansin ang ibang taong nasa likod nila. They are nine players, plus Valord who's at the front, it makes them ten. My eyes travelled to the beautiful girl just at Alpha's back.

She has a very long brown hair, pale skins, almon shaped hazel eyes, proud nose and thin lips. She has a very innocent face like a fragile glass that you shouldn't be holding or else, it'll easily break. Her height even suits her. Bakas rin ang ngiti sa kanyang mukha at masasabi kong mabait naman sya at magkakasundo kami.

“Hello!” She cheerfully said and waved. “Nice to meet you all! I'm so excited to have a quest with all of you again.” She said with her angelic voice. Bakit ba mukhang anghel itong babaeng ito? Nakakainggit lang kasi parang perpekto na sya, eh.