The space between us two is killing me, could you stay? I don't know how to be here, I don't know how to be anywhere else. We live on a thin sheet of glass, bound to break as the weight increases too much. But I don't want to run.
I love you so much I forgot how to breathe. I became dependent on you so long ago it hurts. Whenever something happens you always are the first one to know. Years are passing and we're becoming different people. I can't stay. I can't leave.
Honestly I've been searching for someone else. Someone else I could treat the way I treat you, someone else I feel natural around. But I can't find anyone. I'd like to hope one day I will. Your parents are like my parents, your sister is like my sister. It's getting harder to be around you- the time has changed us.
These days I've noticed how fragile our glass sheet is getting. I'll lose you, and there's nothing I can do about it. We were built to break, which makes loving you so much harder. Because I need you, and now I'll split unless you change. Which you won't.
It would take heaven and hell to balance our weight on the glass, and as I mature and you don't, we just keep getting heavier. Prepare for the worst. We don't get along like we used to. I keep closing off parts of me from you because I don't want you to see the vulnerable me before I leave.
Leave you on the glass.
STAI LEGGENDO
Quiver
Poesiaa place where I've written my feelings when I felt them. it has become a story of depression and recovery, love and loss, hope and fear, and everything in-between. mostly poetry, sometimes stories. :)
