For those who knew what lay in my past
I tell them that I'm better now
I tell them that I crave life
I tell them I set down the knife.
I tell them how I love my reflection
how I love my smile and eyes
I let them know how I fell in love
with myself this time
I explain now how I love to have fun
love to scream and giggle and laugh
I tell them that my burning desire
is a fire that will always last
I tell them how I love the world
how I even learned to love my fears
how I find calm amidst the storm
how I found clarity among my tears
I tell them how I smile when I wake
when the light seeps through my windows
I tell them how I learned to love mornings again
how I once again became a morning bird.
The fountains of my sadness and the meadows of my light
the caves of my anxiety and the mountains of my courage
I learned to embrace my flaws and strengths
I learned how to control them, too.
I don't tell them about that August night
the first relapse in so long
I don't tell them how I recovered
because of one empowering song
I don't tell them how I cried and wept
and prayed for a better tomorrow
I don't tell them how I picked myself up
and mastered healing my sorrows.
I don't try to explain what relapses are
how they occur so rarely
as I don't want them to ever worry
I feel I wouldn't be treating them fairly
and the words, from my mouth they flew
I'm better now. And for once, it's true.
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STAI LEGGENDO
Quiver
Poesiaa place where I've written my feelings when I felt them. it has become a story of depression and recovery, love and loss, hope and fear, and everything in-between. mostly poetry, sometimes stories. :)