Things you like and dislike about yourself
I'm currently too lazy to do my usual format so I'm just gonna...
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√ like
_ i like the way i can get away with flipping the bird at someone
_ i like the fact that i can tolerate bitches
_ i like myself because no one else does
_ i like the way i can still stay alive and suck it all up despite this shit happening rn
_ i like the way i didn't murder my parents yet bc i'm mad about the fact that they made me when i didn't wanna be brought to life at all
_ i like the fact that i can catch up to people who are well-off when i'm a poor piece of shit who has to live underground (no joke i'm underground atm, it's stormy, signal is shit, and the sleeping bag is very comfortable)
_ i like it how i can refrain from attempting to burn the world down
√ dislike
_ too many to mention, but this category includes the following:_
_ myself as a whole
_ my lack of understanding
_ the fact that i can never get traumas which means i repeat shit i do over and over again and i get eaten by the same shit right after
_ being alive
_ i would probably have liked the previous item better if i was given a better one lol shut your face luv
_ the way i can doubt people just because they looked at my pen while they were talking to me
_ i don't like anything specific
_ i'm doubting the only two friends i actually fucking have
_ i'm not patient
_ i can't deal with shit at all
_ pain
_ and living is a pain so yeh
i hope i just die in my sleep tonight so i won't have to worry about the upcoming performance this sunday, the rehearsal on saturday or later, how i'm going to walk thru the storm, what i'm gonna eat later, how much money i'll spend and how much cuts that'll take from our savings again, about how cold the water's gonna be when i bathe later, about saving up for things i want and not need, about going to school, about my homework and shit, about how i'll talk to everyone else, about when i'll really die, about how many cuts and bruises i'll get over time, about crime, about the fucking economy, about future jobs, about college and shit or senior high, about people, about being put on a fucking electric chair, about getting tonsillitis, about accidentally eating mud bye
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Hello there, people i know irl. idek why i tagged you all on this chapter of all chapters, but maybe it's just me seeking attention or some shit? I'm known for that, right? Anyways, do this whole fucking challenge and pray with me so i can die today, in my fucking sleeping lezzgooo
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