Bevore we lost Ourselfs (OLD, TRASH, VERY BAD SPELLING AND GRAMMAR!)

chapter 36

A/N at the end!
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-5 days after last chapter, 4AM-

"Excuse me! May I ask where I am?" I asked a woman I didin't know, in a place I didin't know.
"Helloooo?" She didin't replie.

Suddendly she turned her head around. I jumped.
"Was it fun?"
"Ummm... Ma'am I don't exactly know what your talking about...."
"Don't you remember the first woman you killed? My name-"
"-was Alexis Mason..."
"Not so forrgedibul ,huh?"
I stayed quied as she disapeared. More and more people that were well... Killed ... By me.... Came and disapeared again.... It were many many people...
When suddendly the devil himself came.
"Don't cry. Its an order."
I didin't lisen.
"DON'T. CRY."
Still nothing.

A shot.
Pain.
Seeing them sufer.
Everything fadeing black.

I woke up screaming and cring.
Alina ran to my room, with an axe.
"IS THE LONDON MURDERER HERE?!" She scremed.
"Ehhhhhh... I had a nightmare that's all...." I cuden't say no, she isin't here, since I wud be lying.
Alina huged me.
"Tell me about it..."
"N-No .... I'm okay again..."
She looked at me worringly.
"I-if you say so..." With that she walked out.

-time skip, 6 AM-
I have looked the door of my room.

Pain went thro my arms as I cut myself more and more...

After about 19 cuts I stoped, and puled my sleve down.

I was weak from the blood lost...

A knock
I shot up from my thots.
"C-Come in!" I said to whoever was knocking on my door.
Kira came in. "Hey Lun-Lun the others are goin- my god your so fucking pale, what the fuck happend?"
"I-I don't know..." I said in a weak voice.
"Well, you better stay home with me." She said, smiling a bit.
"E-eh I gues so..."
"Lun-Lun, I can see something's wrong.... What is it?"
I looked at my arm, she imideatly understood.
"How many...?"
"19.."
She bandaged my arm, and we walked to the livingroom.
I was just... Zoneing out... Thinking 'bout shit...
Authors acual thinking warning!
What ever we do... We will end up the same...
Nothing matters in the end..
Who will tell our storys in the end?
Who will remember us?
What will happen with us afterwards?
We can see the past everyday.... We just need to see up...
The stars are lies... Many of them are gone...
Is there an end?
Is there a begining?
Why do people see death as something bad?
Why do we think of it as a hoded skeleton?
Without death there is no life...
Its like two kids playing togheter...
Why can't we figure out what will ha-
I was intorupded from my thots by Kira.
"Luna why the fuck are you zoning out constandly?!"
"Thinking..."
"About the military your going to, huh?!"
"Kira.... I don't want to talk about it..."
"You will have to avanguly"
"I know..."

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So, eh... Hi! It meh! The real life Luna :3
In this book, its about two weeks bevore X-mas! Yay!
I know, it has not even been halloween, but I, and my lovely desitions have said: "FUCK IT! I LOVE CHRISTMASS AND ITS GONNA BE CHRISTMASS!"
Soooo.... Soon will be Christmass in this book.
Why? Mainly becose:
1. Mah friand-chan randomfreakgirl has not made Chrismass in her book, sadly, but understandlbul.
2. I reeeeeeaaaaaaallly wanna make christmas in this book, also including some tradisions I, a Polish girl, have. And mabe even my bffs traditions.

+Random fun fact! Sorry If I have already mentiont this, but,
Kira, Alina, Sky, Rebecca and Luna are based of acual people! Like Luna is obviosly me :³
That's all, thanks for reading my lame story, see ya!