trigger warning - mention of self harm
~"Y/N...?" I asked and she turned around~
"What do you want?"
"Well" I knelt down in front of her
"Uh what are you doing?" she asked, sounding rather annoyed.
"I love you so unbelievably much and I can't imagine my life without you. I've never met such a beautiful and loving person like you and I want to spend the rest of my life with you and maybe have a family one day"
I stopped talking for a second and got the ring out of my purse.
"And that's why I want to ask you if you'd do me the honor and marry me" I said smiling.
Y/N just stood there with tears in her eyes and I got up again, expecting a rejection.
She then cupped my head with her hands and kissed me softly.
"Yes..." she said while starting to cry "Of course I want to marry you"
"Oh thank god" I let out a really small chuckle while putting the ring on her finger "I thought I'm too old for you"
"What? You're definitely not"
I then gave her a big hug "I love you so much"
"I'm so sorry for being such a bitch"
"Y/N don't worry about it, you're definitely not a bitch. What matters now is our future together okay?"
Y/N nodded and wiped her tears aways.
"yooo I'm not okay" Sapphire said half laughing half crying "I'm so happy for you guys"
We decided to stay for a bit longer just to enjoy the moment and each other's company.
"Wanna post a picture of the ring on Instagram?" Y/N asked smirking.
"Always" I said and got my phone out.
I took a picture of my hand holding hers with a good view onto the ring and posted it with the caption:
got a yes from the prettiest lady, i love you y/n y/l/n soon to be paulson💞
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Back home after dropping Sapphire off I decided to quickly check the comments on my last post
usera: SJDBBDSJHDKWVRIFB
usera: YES
user c: i'm so happy for you two💗💗
userb: no WHAT IM CRYING
user d: get itttt💓
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It was 2.35am by now and I was still awake, Y/N wanted to stay downstairs to watch some TV and she would come upstairs later.
I stared at the ceiling when I heard the door slowly open.
"Are you awake?" Y/N whispered, closing the door behind her.
"Mhm yeah, couldn't sleep without you"
"I- I'm sorry...." she said as her voice broke
I sat straight up "What happened?"
She then held out her arms and started crying. There were several big and small cuts placed wildly over her arms.
"Hey hey..." I said taking her in my embrace "Don't cry"
"Why did you do it?" I asked while trying to comfort her.
"I- I don't kn- know, It just came over me. I'm so sorry"
"Don't be sorry, it's not your fault"
"It is. And I'm even staining your shirt with my fucking blood, I'm so s- sorry"
I stood up, took her hand and took her to the bathroom with me.
"What are you doing?" Y/N asked, looking at me while I was rambling through my cabinet.
"I'm trying to find- ah got them" I said as I held up bandages "It's going to hurt for a second okay?" I then asked and got a nod as an okay.
I put the bandages around her arms, earning an ouch every now and then.
"All done"
"Thank you..." Y/N said with a small smile "C- Can we go to bed?"
"Of course we can"
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When I woke up Y/N was nowhere to be seen, at least not upstairs.
I went downstairs to check on where she's at.
"Y/N?"
"Kitchen!" she exclaimed and I went into the kitchen to find a wonderful prepared breakfast.
"Good morning" she said and gave me a kiss on my cheek
"Morning" I said as I sat down.
"Did you sleep well?"
"Very well actually. How long have you been up for?"
"Uh 2? Maybe 3?"
"Awh. So, I have to work today, do you want to come with me? You can do your online school stuff on set"
Y/N looked at me with wide eyes "YES I thought you'd never ask" she said laughing.
"Well well. Let's eat and then I need to get ready and after that we can leave"
Y/N nodded in excitement and we started eating.
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We were now on our way to set, Y/N giggling like a small child.
"Are you that excited?" I asked smirking
"YES"
"You're adorable"
"StooOOOP"
"Sure sure" I said as we pulled into the parking lot.
We got out of the car and Y/N looked around with big eyes.
"Wow"
"Hm?"
"This is amazing"
I then took her hand "I know I know" I said as we went on set.
Y/N was constantly looking around and it was just too adorable. A few minutes after we arrived, Ryan came up to us.
"You must me Y/N?"
Y/N just looked at him, without saying anything.
"I- I- uh I- yeah!" she tried to get a sentence out somehow
"It's nice to finally meet you" he said and pulled Y/N in for a hug.
a/n would y'all mind if I posted shorter chapters so I can update more often?😛
(or at least try to update more often since I need to find new inspiration at the moment and school is hitting my nerves)
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