Breathing In

Chapter // Thirty Four

AN- LISTEN TO IRIS BUT SWS COVER OKAY CUZ FEELS

Alex's POV

After about half an hour of talking and drinking our now empty drinks, we finally leave.

"Wait Alex, theres one more place I want to take you." I nod, a bit confused but agreeing with him never the less. He takes my hand and leads me down the side walk and soon onto a path I've never seen before.

~~~~ (ik people know this a squishy or something but lets be cool beans and idk i forgot)

"Luukkee where are we going?" We've been walking in the cold dark for what feels like hours, but its been more like twenty minutes. He looks back and gives me a small smile, the moon light illuminating half of his face. He starts to say something, but I can't hear anything, all I can do is stare at his face.

"Alex?" I blink a couple times before looking at him again.

"Yeah?"

"Were here." I look at my surrounding, at least 2 feet of snow surrounding us, no trees around us, and in the center there is a frozen lake. The stars reflecting off the ice, snow lightly falling around us. He gentle grabs my hand again, giving me warmth immediately, pulling me down to the ground with him.

His long arms envelope me into his body, his warmth over powering the cold.

"Alex, look at the stars and count every star you see." I look up at the sky, million of stars scattered across.

"I cant Luke?"

"Why?" He lightly kisses my hair, snuggling his face into it.

"Because theres to much to count."

"Almost like my love for you, I love you so much there too much to count how much. And I don't know if what I said made any sense but what I'm trying to say is I love you so much." By the time he finished he was gasping for air, I let out a small giggle and kiss his collar bone mumbling a "I love you too."

A few minutes pass in a sweet calming silence, Luke lets a small sigh before opening his mouth.

"Alex I came to a conclusion that I'd give up forever to touch you because I know that you feel me somehow. And I don't think you realize that you're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be. And I don't want the world to see me, the media, the fans, the boys, your mom. Just you, because I don't think that they'd understand. When everything's meant to be broken, i just want you to know who I am. And I learned you can't fight the tears that ain't coming or the moment of truth in your lies. When everything feels like the movies, every things seams to be going right, yeah, you'd bleed just to know you're alive. Alex I love you so much, and it hurts to know your hurting. I don't want any other girl but you. I need you, like a baby needs its mother. I crave you, like your some drug that i cant stop using. I breathe you in, like Mikey does with his pizza. I lust you, like today is our last day together. I just love you Alex. I never want to leave you again, because the last time I did some lying dick weed stole you. I never want to hurt you again, because knowing your in pain eats me from the inside out. I honestly hate it when I see guys look at you, or you looking at a boy, even if you don't mean it in a sexual way or anything, but I get self conscious that you think he's cuter or that you might leave me for him. Alex I'd be damned if I didn't tell you this, but you the best damn thing that has ever happened to me." My eyes slowly lower, and darkness over takes me, but before I completely fall asleep i hear him whisper,

"I love you so damn much."

AN- HI ITS GINGY HI ILY OKAY AND JABQKWBWKW JILLS RELATIONSHIP IS OTP OKAY BYE.