EVERY BEAT OF MY HEART

CHAPTER 12: Past

You can't love me. I'm not capable of loving anyone Arylle.

But I am different from them. I am a beast and I will be surely your worst nightmare.

Damn Arylle! Stop pretending to be wild infront of a beast like me. I'm gonna skin you alive if you don't stop! I am a monster that you cannot handle!

No one can tame me. Not even you! I am a wild beast Arylle! Don't try to touch me ever again!

A demon who will brought the hell to your life once you hurt her.

Paulit-ulit niyang naririnig ang boses ni Drake sa isip niya. Nagpalinga-linga siya sa pagbabakasakaling makita niya ang binata sa paligid.

"Ano bang tingin niya sa akin? Pusa? Porket may tatoo lang siya ng Lion sa dibdib niya, mabangis na siya?" Napabuntong hininga na lang siya habang tahimik na nagtatrabaho. Gustong-gusto na niyang makabalik ng Maynila. Maisisiraan na siya sa kakaisip ng mga dahilan kung bakit ba hindi niya pwedeng mahalin si Drake.

Arylle's eyes were filled with loneliness as she accept the fact that he was not around. Why do she need to fall inlove with a man who has a lots of secrets? She couldn't understand why Drake's eyes and words are telling her to find the truth. He sound broken the way he talk to her that day. And even his words are so painful, it sounded strangely melodic. They were venomous and posionous, but sweet and protective at the same time. He is always like that, his voice was trace of roughness, cold formality and upper class arrogance. But you will always feel safe and protected against anything that might harm you.

"Sinong hinahanap mo? Si Drake?" Nilapitan siya ni Nathan nang mapansing wala pa rin itong tigil sa paghahanap. Patago man ang mga mata ni Arylle, mabilis pa din iyong napansin ng binata.

"Ano na namang gusto mo?" Mula ng malaman ni Arylle ang tungkol sa pustahan ay naging malamig na siya kay Nathan. Wala itong ibang ginawa sa araw-araw kundi ang kulitin siya. Pero wala din ibang ginawa ang dalaga kundi ang sungitan ito.

"Ano bang kailangan kong gawin para mapatawad mo ako?" Iyon ang araw-araw na tanong ni Nathan sa kanya.

"Tantanan mo ako. Yon ang gawin mo!" Bagay na hinding-hindi gagawin ng binata. Seryoso siya kay Arylle at gagawin niya ang lahat mabaling lang ang pagtingin ng dalaga sa kanya.

"Sorry, I won't do that. Hinding-hindi kita titigilan hanggang sa magustuhan mo ako."

"Ang taas naman talaga ng level of confidence mo noh? What made you think na magugustuhan kita kapag hindi mo ako tinantanan?"

"Well...love can can be learn. Alam mo gamot sa pagiging brokenheart?" That line really hit Arylle.

"Rebound? Gusto mo maging rebound?" Alam na agad ni Arylle ang ibig sabihin ni Nathan sa mga salitang yon.

"Kung yun ang tawag mo don, why not? I am willing to do it."

"I'm not gonna use anyone para lang makalimot noh!"

"You can use me, kung yun lang ang pwede kong maging silbi sayo. Use me as long as you want. I don't care if you love Drake. Tatanggapin ko kung ano lang ang kaya mong ibigay sa akin sa ngayon. Just give me chance Arylle. Please?" His eyes shifted to the side and became watery layer of tears. As he blinked, they dripped from his eyelids and slid down to his cheeks. He bit his lower lip tightly in attempt to hide any sound.

"I love you Arylle, alam ko hindi ka naniniwala sa akin, but I really do." Her heart sank when Nathan's lower lip quivered as words slowly made their way out of his mouth.

"Dok Nathan, sorry." Arylle put her hand softly to his shoulder as a token of her sympathy.

Seryoso ba talaga tong mokong na to? May paiyak-iyak pang nalalaman?