Let me love you

Chapter 15

Chloe's P.O.V

I run the cotton pad over my eye trying to get rid of all the makeup. I already changed into my pyjamas so once I'm done removing my makeup, I can go lay in bed and sleep. My feet are hurting me after walking in heels for so long. 

After taking 5 more minutes to clean my face, I brush my teeth and call it a day. 

Lying down in bed, I close my eyes hoping to fall asleep soon, but sleep doesn't follow through. My mind is racing with memories of what happened earlier. Ian meeting my friends and the stares with Jacob. His hands on my body and the way we danced. His fingers lingering on my bottom lip. The look in his eyes. I don't think he realises the way he looks at me sometimes.

I open my eyes staring at my plain white ceiling, holding my bottom lip between my teeth.

It makes me think, am I attracted to him? Or was whatever was going on tonight just the vibe of being out dancing and having fun? I never thought about this. Ian is a very good-looking guy, I'm not going to lie but there is a big difference between liking and just being physically attracted to someone.

I think it could be the latter cause I haven't had sex in the past 9 months and my vibrator can only do so much. I mean this is just a fleeting thought, so I won't dwell too much on it.

I grab my phone to check the time, 2:04. Damn, time flies by when you have a lot on your mind. The sound of glass shattering makes me jump out of bed. I grip my phone tightly before putting my sleepers on and rushing to my balcony.

The sound definitely came from Ian's room. The walls aren't paper-thin, but they aren't super thick either. I carefully hop on my fence, taking it nice and easy not wanting to fall. I mentally prepare myself before jumping on his balcony. 

I need to thank whoever designed this building for putting the balconies fairly close to one another. Only two average height and weight people would fit standing between our balconies that's how thick the wall is.

I hit franticly the glass door a few times before Ian opens the door looking wide-eyed at me with no shirt on.

"What are you doing here?" He whispers shouts at me. 

Really does he need to ask that? 

"I heard glass breaking and I came to see if you're alright."

After his dad found him outside the apartment earlier, I was worried that something could happen to him. I wasn't sure if his dad bought my lie or not.

"Oh, yeah sorry about that, I just dropped a glass, I'm fine," his voice is shaky.

Taking a better look at him his whole body is shaking and his breathing is erratic.

"Are you sure cause your shaking?" I ask slowly.

"Oh, I just had a nightmare, I'm fine, " he lies.

I grab his wrist and pull him back to his bed, sitting down I pat the space next to me. He lays down on his stomach hugging his pillow as his back is now exposed to me. My eyes roam around he's toned back, he's quite muscular.

Don't look, Chloe! Focus!

"Do you want to talk about it?" I lay on my stomach as well, hugging the other pillow.

"It was just a recurring nightmare, " he whispers.

"What was it about?"

He doesn't look at me as he speaks.

"It was about losing all of my friends. Them abandoning me because they can't be bothered anymore with my life."

"You won't lose any friends Ian. You need to get rid of that fear. Your friends care about you, " I don't know where this fear comes from, but I hope he lets it go soon, he can't continue like this.

"How do you know that? I haven't spoken about my friends before, " he closes his eyes as he talks.

"I might not know anything about your other friends, but I know a lot about one, me, " his eyes open as he pushed his head a little further up to be level with mine, wanting me to continue.

"And I'm not going anywhere, Ian. I told you that before, I'm here to stay. You don't have to fear about that, not anymore, " I whisper looking in his eyes as my heartbeat starts raising and my stomach tightens up.

He looks at me with that look again.

What is that damn look?

He moves a little closer but not close enough to where our noses touch.

"Thank you, Chloe."

"For what?" My eyebrows furrow a bit.

"For just being you and being my friend, you came at the right moment in my life I think, " he's so sincere when speaking.

"Thank you, Ian, for allowing me to befriend you."

I raise my hand pushing back his hair, he seems to like it judging but the sigh he left and how his eyes flatter.

He moves even closer to me and does something I didn't anticipate.

His arms come around my waist as he hugs me bringing me close to his body. As I relax into his arms, I wrap mine around his neck playing with his hair.

"Tomorrow is Wednesday right? and your parents would be at work in the morning, " I say softly.

"Yeah, why?" He says while pulling away from our hug.

"I know a place where we can go relax and have fun. It's further away but we can take the bus, " I say.

"Okay, so far all the places you took me were nice minus the party, " he lets out a sigh closing his eyes and relaxing his grip on the pillow.

"Are you sleepy?" 

He just mumbles in agreement.

"Your voice helps me calm down, I like it."

His words make my heart clench.

What are you doing to me, Ian?

This isn't how I picture things going.

Maybe my previous thought wasn't going to be as fleeting as I thought it would.

As soon as I realise he's asleep, I silently get out of bed pulling the sheet over his body. I walk towards the glass doors and slide them open just enough for me to fit through.

"Night Ian, " I whisper even though I know he can't hear me.

I close the doors silently and quickly jump over to my balcony getting in my bed. I also left the paper bird that I didn't end up using on his side table, hoping that will be the first thing he'll see when he wakes up.

The only thought on my mind right now is Ian.

A/N

Seems like someone is starting to feel a bit different maybe... 👀

Another adventure coming up tomorrow!

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