Folly & Agendas & Talulah

Explanations {Message from the Author} Part 2:

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Be prepared, as this message will be longer than I'd like it to be, but I feel that you as the reader must know...

I want to begin this part of the message with a question for you all:

"Where is this story, 'Folly & Agendas & Talulah', heading?"

If you have read the the last few chapters, you can tell that the story is moving at a faster pace. If you put in on a regular storyline, it would be close to reaching the climax. I'm only so far from it now. So far...

But as I move closer and closer to the end, I read all of my older chapters again. This time, I do not edit them for mistakes; I leave them be and wonder: did I really write this? But as I read on, I grew more and more frustrated by how unconnected it looks. And as many writers know:

most things we write are cringe...

I have already moved on from seeing all of the mistakes I've made; that's why I replaced many of my older chapters. I rewrote and replaced Chapters 1 - 5, but they don't have the same feeling to the older ones. They don't have the pizzazz or the funniness of some moments, like when I first introduced Projekt Red, she literally popped out of nowhere and BAM crashed into my OC, Kaiser Rye. 

It's not there anymore... and here I am asking myself what happened?

But the answer is simple: my goals were unrealistic.

I thought that writing would be easy, and for a time it was, but then everything has so many plot holes and 

I played by game of catering to what some of the community wants: like sex scenes, weird bullshit, funny quips (that I failed to write), action and plot twists. As for how successful I was in that, yeah... I wasn't, I like to alienate myself away from those things but I fell for it. That's why I tried to create a serious story, told in the 3rd Person, and by me taking the persona and perspective of Talulah. It was odd, but I thought I had the hang of it. Then I had to mix in my OC: Kaiser Rye, and that's where the problems begin.

Creating my original character was the most proudest moment in my writing journey in Wattpad. I pictured a tall, handsome man, with qualities that would at appeal to some people. But that was the first failure: it didn't work. Right now, Kaiser Rye is just a character drifting around.

Yes, he is incredibly important for the story as his character has a role in basically everything, but it really wasn't explored as much as I imagined. He saves Misha from the Reunion on a whim, comes back to join Rhodes Island and Lungmen, helps the Reunion escape, comes back –etc.... 

In the flashback chapters, he is just there, as a husband and a dad, but he very lacking in those categories (for the lack of better words). He really isn't that much. He isn't as much as I wanted him to be, and that was my intention for the start.

If you hadn't known, the protagonist of this story is, in fact, Talulah, not Kaiser Rye... The clues were out there. The first few words all came out of Talulah's mouth, back when I thought it would interesting to take on writing as a different person. It was far more different, and difficult, than I could have imagined, but I liked it, so I kept on writing. Then the flashback scenes with babies get repetitive fast, and I hate it, but I never bothered to fix it. 

I've always wondered how the story would have sounded if I decided to write in Kaiser Rye's POV. Would it sound better or worse? I had several ideas already typed up in different parts, but I ultimately decided to get rid of them for obvious reasons.

Now it's a bit too late to explore Kaiser Rye's character –at least I feel that way. He was very transparent from the beginning and he is awfully bland. Just read over every part that has him. The only thing that made him interesting –to me, besides his relations in the story– was his actions and dialogue. 

It feels like there is nothing left I can do, but I know there is so much I still can do, but I feel like quitting the story and leaving it at that. It's not a way to go down; it's not. 

This may sound like me rambling on and on, and you probably get the point already...

Now there is one thing I ask of you...

The third part of the message will be published tomorrow, and it will decide the fate of this story...