Number One On The List

Jealousy

Jealousy controlled Ryder in that moment outside because I heard a loud voice yelling and seemed to be the only one who cared enough to eavesdrop and make sure everything was good. Evwrytime she went to speak, he'd raise his hand like he was going to hit her and she flinched every single time. "Why does it bother you that he's seeing her or any girl for that matter?! I swear to God if you let him fuck you... It WILL get ugly, Rhaven.  I hope you understand what else will happen and this will be to YOU," he threatened.

It made me angry that he could threaten a girl like that and feel nothing. I wasnt all that better though and I came to terms with that already so I wasn't trying to be cocky but I knew she could do better than that piece of shit. I opened the door and stepped outside to smoke a cigarette and they went to a different side of the building and continued to "talk". She was such an angel and she didn't deserve that treatment from someone who claimed to want her and love her.

I smelled the tears and knew what was about to happen with them and it WAS going to get ugly. She went to leave and he grabbed her by her hair and drug her down the street and I followed not far behind them and then I ended up blacking out and when I came to, Rhaven was covered in blood and cowering in a corner of the building, rocking back and forth. I approached her and she cried so hard that her voice cracked a few times. I knew I had hurt either her and him or just him and she happened to be near and get his blood. I wasn't too sure about it.

She softly spoke and said," You hurt him but not enough. He'll be back eventually and then I don't know how it'll go. I just don't want to be around it when it hits." I knew then that it had been his blood she was wearing and I did feel relieved that she hadn't gotten hurt but was mad because the fucker should've died. I had failed at taking out a threat and it would haunt me until I ended his ass once and for all.

I knew she probably wouldn't let me though too. She had been jealous and got what she sort of had coming to her but he was the most jeous of the two so he deserved more than he got coming to him. I remember telling her to go clean up and I was going to do the same thing and enjoy my date later that evening woth Bella. Her sadness was kind of satisfying but also sort of heartbreaking because I wanted her but she didn't want me and that was fine with me but now it bothered her.

I had been a hypocrite and a pathological liar and I had caused this but I wasn't the only one at fault.