The promises of so many people had been broken for so many reasons and over time, I had understood them and been forced to accept them. I could hear Daemon answer that very question to this day almost the exact same. "He's not coming, is he?" The awkward silence for a moment before,"I don't think so, buddy." The disappointment flooding me. For years, I kept hoping that he'd come back and we could be a family again but he continued to not show.
The nice, hot water was making me feel better and I just continued to cry, silently and alone. Feeling like a burden like I had my whole life. Wondering what I did to deserve this kind of punishment. Cruel punishment. The self-esteem became worse than ever before. I couldn't feel confident in myself that much because I wasn't much more than a failure. Than a fuck-up. The steam from the water was clearing my nose that was running from crying for a few moments and helped to make it seem like I wasn't crying at all.
It also took me back to how things went with Rhaven and how I wasn't willing to make the time right for giving her what she wanted. What she needed to save her. I was selfish and that's why she went with him for that long and even though it didn't work out with them, she's still not okay. She's still disappointed. The tears streaked my face even harder at the thought that I probably sent her back into a relapse. She was probably cutting again and I was to blame because I didn't want to take the chance at giving her a baby right now and wanted the time to be more right than it was.
I was excited for Halloween because it was the one time of year everyone got to act like a goofy jackass and get away with it. No worries about serious repercussions. No real care in the world. The chance to be ANYTHING you wanted to be in life. Anything you wanted to be... Things were becoming more easier for the supernatural because we could be ourselves on Halloween and didn't need to hide for the one day a year.
Things were beginning to fall into place. And it was painful but necessary.
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Mystery / ThrillerTate Embers was a teenager when he was already dealing with the dislike of most everyone he came into contact with. His childhood was seriously ruining his life.and then one day, he discovers himself.. Somewhat.. Violently Icy- Tate's POV
