Number One On The List

Part 6: The crossroads/ The pain

The crossroads now was that I wasn't sure what exactly to do. Do I go after her and try to make her see that she's wrong or do I just let her go and possibly make the worst mistake of her life? The crossroads here sucked so much ass that it's like Rikishi from WWE, so much stank-ass (egh). Drowning in the selfishness of wanting her to just stay with me forever yet the selflessness of wanting her to make her own decisions and make her see what she wants is right in front of her.

Anthony  'Tony'  Carson was a good guy and was actually able to become a teacher's assistant in school because he excelled in every class and got his diploma early so he got the offer from a few of the teachers to be their assistant. He also had gotten a few college scholarships because of how insanely talented he was. I knew I was leading her on when it came to so much but I wanted to give her better than anything she had now. Give her an ACTUAL life. One where she didn't have to second guess my words or reasons for doing things for her. Give her enough attention and reassurance as needed.

The pain of it all has created such a beast that its unstoppable. The power of the pain is superior to all other feelings flowing inside of me and Daemon. It felt as if we were going to die because of our organs being ready to burst. We spent the day in our rooms, texting back and forth. We talked about our girl problems and it was helpful to let it out, but at the same time it was like we were stuck in the exact same place and we couldn't get out. People had made up rumors by the next day and the whole school was talking about Daemon and I and it was annoying. Everyone had their own questions that they thought they had to inquire about and they all rnded up with the same answers every time.

They left like sad fools because they thought they had something juicy on us or something and it happened to be the complete opposite. They never had suspicions about us being supernatural or anything like that so we knew we were safe. We also knew the powers we had could erase anything that posed as a threat to us so there couldn't be serious danger.

Rhaven walked into the cafeteria and I noticed a ring on her finger and it was one that had been such an eye opener because she had perfectly painted black nails and she had a dainty, gold ring on her ring finger on her left hand and I knew instantly what her decision was. It was going to be another lat night for me and I knew it would be another kong night for Daemon because she came in with Wynrie and even she, herself , had a ring on her hand but it was a different color. Wynrie's engagement ring was silver and dainty and had the exact same diamond as Rhaven's did.

We both looked at each other from across the cafeteria and for a moment, could only stare at one another, in such disbelief. We had lost our girls and we hadn't even really gotten a chance to get anywhere with them. We felt heartbroken and like we were never going to find true love outside of them. It was probably true too though. It felt like I was going to shit my guts out and throw up at the same time and I could feel Daemon was the same way too. We hurried to the bathroom and began to have an anxiety attack. Daemon's was almost simultaneous to mine and I wasn't sure what to do, so I began to freak out more.

We both sat on the toilet in the stalls and began to have anxiety attacks while shitting our guts out and trying not to vomit on top of everything else. I couldn't believe that this was happening to both of us but, I was glad we had each other to lean on through it. Everything felt like a mistake. Like maybe we didn't try hard enough for them so we couldn't be too hurt because we didn't do enough to keep them happy and safe.

"Maybe we should try to do something that will prove that no matter what we'll ALWAYS  be here for them and we will wait for them to realize that we can offer them about the same as whoever they found. That we are not going anywhere. That even if we don't approve, we'll support them in their decisions and we will have our opinions but we won't push our opinions on them but we will at least voice it once," Daemon said.