Number One On The List

Making it right?!

I was calling her phone and when it went to voice-mail, it broke a piece of my heart.  "Hey it's Tate.. Listen,  about everything.. I shouldn't have gone that far and hurt you like that.  I'm sorry as fuck. I was hoping we could get together and talk about this.. I'm really sorry,  Rhave," and then I hung up the phone.  I waited and waited for days, weeks, for something. I never stopped trying to get what I wanted back.

I kept calling twice a day (sometimes three). Left message after message explaining thongs to her. Reminding her I'm not easy to love, not one bit. Didn't mean I couldn't make it work with her still. I had went back to that country boy she fell for,  the sensitive guy. I had began showing my emotions to her and she was kind of warming up to it again. I just had to stay this way. I couldn't turn into Ryder.

I was getting somewhere and I knew that something was going to go wrong as hell here. My demons were climbing towards the top of the cage they were trapped in and if just one got out, my progress would have been for not. So useless. The thought of me acting just like her abusers was.. Unexcusable and she didn't deserve to even try to make it work with me, honestly.  It was her choice though and she chose this relationship more than anything else.

She obviously had kept her guards up at all times (which is completely understandable). I just hoped I could fulfill this for her. Be what she needs, be who she needs. I had to be there whenever she needed and to do whatever she wanted. I felt like a failure because I wasn't doing that. I stopped doing what she fell for in me and this was my problem now and I needed to fix it.

I had to fix it to not only show her how gorgeous she is but to help her with her self image. Build her up, not tear her down. Not tear her apart anymore. She'd already been having appetite issues where she'd lose her appetite almost as fast as she got one and it freaked me out. I wasn't sure what to do with the situation so I just left it alone and contonued not to mention anything to her about my concern for it.

I felt like something was a little bit too good about the area we looked over honestly.  Something just seemed too right, perfect. I knew where I had to go mindaet wise so it was easy sailing from here on out. She hadn't been to school (as I was told already), but it still didn't make me any less messed up about it. Wynrie came to school and sometimes she'd go over there but she didn't say much when it came to much else when you'd ask. Probably respecting her wishes.

Didn't mean it didn't hurt. She was going to stay in that area permanently and  everybody knew it, but it didn't mean I liked it. I messaged her," Come over so we can talk, please " and hoped she came. She did and as soon as I closed my bedroom door the shower was going and she began taking off her clothes. I caught a glimpse of her bra and panties, a nice g-string, black. Matches the bra.

She got in the shower and I approached and shut the door behind me quietly.  I got naked and got in the shower quietly. She let me get under the warm spray and that's when I felt it. I felt that tongue ring against the tip lacking up and down a few times and then deep throating my rock hard cock. It was hard to pace myself but I did it and made sure I lasted a little for her.

She sunk her nails into my balls and it felt amazing with what he tongue was doing. She was sucking me like a goddess and it was perfect.  When I was coming and warned her," Hey it's coming," she hadn't hesitated to do the unthinkable. She kept sucking my cock and I kept moaning under my breath a bit. I came in her mouth and she swallowed every bit of it.

She was so fucking hot. So sexy. Mmm! I wanted to make her feel just as good but wasn't sure what was okay for me to do and she was most likely fone with nothing in return but I couldn't allow that.