Number One On The List

Senseless and Shameless

The shamelessness was the factor about him I knew she liked the most. His courage and security he could offer. The protection. I was able to offer the same but it was just.. Different. Unique. We both ignored her in our own ways and neither was right for doing it, but she chose to stay on and that wasn't right either. I hoped so many times that she had just up and left certain situations and never came back. Situations she didn't need to be involved in.

I could feel the fear coming from Cassandra but there was also another feeling, concerned. She was concerned for our well-being. Nothing was easing any of us and it showed in our auras. I was glad that only twice a month I felt the ripping of my skin, inch by inch, nerve by nerve. Muscle by muscle. The agonizing pain unlike any other supernatural creatures have ever experienced. I knew that tonight, it would happen again. It was l like a fucked up two day plague. The shamelessness was that I was going to make sure Rhaven wasn't going to be able to push me away anymore. That she couldn't run away from me and hide inside of herself any longer. That she would acknowledge me for who I am, even if it meant the REAL me...

Things sometimes looked up for me and sadly most times, they did not one bit. They seemed to fuck me over every chance possible. We tried to let the urge to hurt someone pass, but it wasn't going that way this time for some reason. I could feel the fear from the two of us coming in strong and then I felt hers, Cassandra"s. I also felt another strange presence in the house too, a man. A man I'd never seen before and that meant neither did Daemon. I could tell that he wasn't as urged as I was with this guy, but he most likely had more control somehow than I did.

I broke free from the chains and shackle and I broke open the door and went straight for the man. He came forward, no fear, and shouted," You know whete I got this from, kid? This scar on my face is from your worthless, piece of shit father. A present from a long time ago now He went all crazy-psycho on me. Maybe I had it comin', maybe not, but he was a bastard and you aren't much better than him. Actually, you ain't no better." I had a feeling this was my fucking relative somehow.

"I will tell you and your brother everything once you both turn back to normal, I promise," Cassandra said. I could sense the shame in her voice when she said it so I knew she had something going on and she needed to get it off her chest. I heard the knock at the door and I was terrified because I couldn't believe that she was here. Rhaven.