Number One On The List

Point of view/From now on

The point of view was everything, especially in a kill like this. I didn't need him to look at me or anything, just to stay where he was, how he was, helpless as ever. How he made her on several occasions. He put his hands up and mumbled," What do you want man? I got money if you need some. I can even lend you my girl here if you want some pussy. I'd rather not though 'cause she mine. Just tell me what you want and I'll get it for you bro," he pleaded. She couldn't help but be shocked to see me here with a gun to her precious little Ryder.

I just couldn't care in that moment. I didn't care about anything other than hurting him for hurting her, but I knew he was the SAME way. He couldn't stand to see her being fucked with by ANY guy (other than himself). "This ain't about money or pussy. She ain't property you can just give away whenever. She's a human fucking being," I snapped. "I just don't get how you can just keep fucking with her head and abusing her body like that," I snapped at him, louder this time.

He recognized my voice and was beginning to put a few pieces together. "You that guy that's been trying to take my place in her life constantly, ain't you," he asked, growing heated a bit himself. "Yeah, yeah, I remember you. Your that fucked up kid who has the brother but luckily he ain't half as fucked up as you are," he continued. I was tired of hearing what he had to say about my family and I pulled his body around so fast, that I heard a few bones break in the process of slamming his ass against the wall next to where Rhaven was.

I applied tons of pressure to his body and he began to struggle to breathe. She grabbed the nearest thing to cover herself with, which was a towel, and she tried to plead with me. "Please, just.. Let him go, Tate. This isn't you. This isn't him either. Not right now anyway. He is high as fucked right now and I am trying to get him to come down off it and sexual shit helps take the edge off coming down from a high for him. I'm used to this shit. Not the first time it's happened and I know it won't be the last but.. I love him and I love you too, but this can't happen again. Ever," she said.

I let him go and just left the house altogether to get some air and process this whole thing. She had just admitted that she loved both of us and that she knew that he was going to act this way and she didn't care. Inside of my head, I punched the wall right now, externally, I did nothing but go home and lock myself in my room. I didn't know how to habdle something like this so it took me a few days to figure out what to do now, since she didn't want my help at the moment.

I heard Daemon's footsteps outside of my door, lingering there, hoping I'd come out just once, even if for something small, but I didn't and he quickly gave up on that hope. Word around town was that Ryder's step-brother was heading into town within the next few days and he was going to be staying with Rhaven. His step-brother was about the same level of piece of shit Ryder was and I was still heartbroken over her so it became incredibly painful for me to hear about ANY of this.

I made sure to watch her house from my bedroom window and waited to catch feeling of some sign of needing to step in and take charge, but there was none. When his step-brother, Cyrus, showed up, he seemed to have a better attitude than his step-brother, but I was sure it was all for show. I watched her cautiously watch Cyrus and Ryder together when Ryder showed up (which was every other night). Some nights Ryder used the excuse of visiting his step-brother just to see Rhaven and everyone knew it.

I suppose I knew she was a bit of a whore but I didn't want to let things be as they were. I needed to fix this shit with her, no matter what. Some days I had to think about where I truly stood because the fucked up shit I keep getting myself into just didn't always seem THAT worth it. The devil seemed to be sitting on my shoulder, whispering shit in my ear and sending it to my brain.

From now on, I have to think about my place here and how it'll probably be the death of me because this was probably going to end up with me dead, saving her. I just wished I didn't care so much about her because it'd make things so much easier. Something just didn't feel right and no matter what, I couldn't shake what it was...

Another sleepless night for Rhaven was upon her and she had sat on her front porch, smoking a cigarette for yet another night that would turn into an even longer morning. I noticed she had a few bruises and cuts on her body and face and she had gotten punched in the stomach because of her posture. One of those ass-fucks had done this to her! The rage had filled my every breath and I saw only red...

I went over to the house and sat down next to her. "I know you know why I'm over here. You must. First, I'm sorry but I love you and I don't want you hurt. Ever. I also know that you know that I know one of those abusive fucks hurt you. You also know that I don't like that. I'm sure you've let them both know this too, but they don't give two shits about me. Or you. I can protect you better than they can, that I can assure you. Just remember that for me," I said. I left her with those words and went home, but before I got there, Ryder walked out onto the front porch of the house and started talking shit to me.

"You better stop fucking with what's mine country boy. Or else I'll have to fuck yo ass up like the pussy you are. You just a pathetic ass puppy dog, ya know that?! Stop seeing what's MINE or you will pay the price," he shouted at me from down the street. I tried to ignore him, but his words did echo in my head on repeat like clockwork. He didn't know what dangerous game he was playing here with me and I will admit, I didn't either.

He WAS dangerous himself but he definitely underestimated me too, so it was fair share, I suppose.