Number One On The List

Part 7: Never think/ Rhaven's Lullaby

The time to never think was now and it wasn't going very well. I couldn't help but think of the fucked up shit I wanted to do to Ryder. How badly I wanted to hurt the son of a bitch. Damn bastard! I began to remember all of the good times I shared with her. The amazing sex. ALL the amazing sex.

Ghosts began to haunt me, ghosts from the past. Haunting memories circled in my brain. I turned up the warm water a bit and when there was a little bit of steam, I began to relax against the shower wall. The spray was hitting the back of my neck slightly, very lightly. I could picture her in front of me right now, as if it were happening for the first time again. She got baked and came in the shower with me, enjoying the water as was I. She wrapped her hand on my cock and gave ny a slight squeeze. I let out a groan. I closed my eyes and let the water touch my face for a few minutes. When I did that, she got down on her knees and started sucking on my elongated cock.I  had to hold onto the wall and brace myself for what was going to come...

She began grinding against my coc and she'd go back and forth between that and sucking it. She took my hands and placed them on her waist, those perfect hips and she wrapped her whole body around mine at the waist and she began bouncing up and down against me. The entire time I have my eyes closed and I'm trying not to make much noise so that I don't wake up Daemon. Our breathing becomes a little off. She makes me sit down against the wall, legs and hips spread wide. She sucks on my cock for a bit and then before I feel anywhere close to done she stops and says," Is this not what you wanted? It's okay, I know what you want. What you REALLY want to do to me. With me."

She goes back to riding me and she places her titties in my face. Hips grinding against mine, pussy and cock sliding. She gets ready to come and we end up coming at the same time. I know I'm not ready to give up yet so we don't stop and she knows it. She gets off and sucks on my cock, taking the come off it and swallowing it. She proceeds so we begin making out. We start again, she's riding me and the water is still hitting us and we're feeling it. I suck on her titties a bit, sucking on the nipple and flicking them with my tongue. I decided to give them a mark so she arched her back and held my face to her titties and continued to ride me like nothing else mattered but this moment.

It did. It mattered. When I went back to flicking, her pace increased and when I marked it went down. In reality, I was jerking off to this memory and it felt like the first time. She was coming and I knew how to get her to come so I knew what I had to do. I gave them one last tiny mark and I went for the nipples again. Every little, delicate flick of my tongue would make her squirm and jump a little, making my cock feel something it's never felt before. It drove her to the point of orgasm. It made her continue to squirm and jump on my cock (even though she was already embracing the whole thing).

I put my hand on her back, making her arch more against the water and me. I continued embracing her titties with my mouth and getting her to orgasm. She jittered against me when she came and she moaned "Tate", softly. Every. Time. I felt like the best guy in the world because we both got off. Twice. That was usually unheard of for most people in Monterey. I came back to reality and knew that there were other good times too. Good sex. Great sex.

I also knew the kind of sex she had with Ryder though. The rough, somewhat abusive sex. The toxic sex. Good sex. Fucking great sex. Sex toxic people had to have because they needed to feel alive or to have fun. I tried not to imagine the sex they were probably having right now. Sex that started as her being in the shower and having the steam clear her mind and the water warm her up some. I could see him getting naked and joining her in the shower, doing the same for a moment.

I see him getting on his knees and taking her legs and bringing her lower half close to him ,hands on her ass, urging her forward. He's eating her pussy and she's got a fistful of his hair.Shes moaning as he takes his tongue deeper and deeper. I see him stopping after she comes (which isn't long) and he takes her by her hair and forces her head down to his cock. He forces her to suck it, deep-throating it, slightly choking on it. He forces her up before he's about to come and makes himself not come.

He pushes her against the wall, his hand on her throat, gripping it. Other hand is back and forth between her ass and her titties. . He occasionally forces her to face him and he bites on her titties, marking them darker than mine. I see him pick her up and her wrap her legs around his waist. I see him bouncing her up and down on his cock, roughly. Hands gripping her ass. Tongue on her nipples. Teeth grazing then, making her gasp sharply.

She she goes to touch him but he goes down on her again and chokes her at the same time, his other hand on her titties, fingers rubbing on either side of the titty, the nipple becoming harder and harder. He takes her waist and wraps it around his neck and continus to eat her pussy. He gets quickly bored of that and makes it more interesting for himself. There's another girl who gets naked and joins in the shower with Rhaven and Ryder. She and Rhaven get on their knees and take turns sucking his cock.

They stop and make out with one another and play with each other's titties.  The girl takes Rhaven's nipple in her mouth and she gets it aroused with her tongue and then she grazes it with her teeth and licks it a few times, like a kitten drinking milk. They begin fingering each other's pussy and he starts jerking off. Before he comes, the girl stops and puts Rhaven against the wall and begins eating her pussy. The girl has Rhaven's waist wrapped around her neck and Ryder gets so aroused by that, that it's what makes him come. He sprays it all over the girls, like a hose.

They are covered in Ryder's come and the girl stops and looks at Rhaven and starts french kissing her, slowly and picking up the pace and passion. The girl starts moaning and takes Rhaven's hand and puts some of Rhaven's fingers inside of her pussy.  She continues to make out with her. She stops and looks at Rhaven, smirk on her face for a moment. Rhaven gets in her knees and begins eating the other girl's pussy out.

The girl grabs a fistful of Rhaven's hair and pulls on it, exactly how Ryder does it. Her other hand forces Rhaven to go deeper. The girl quickly comes and Rhaven is finished with the sex and so is everyone else. That kind of shit made me sick to even think about because I knew with him, that's the only shit he was doing with her. Threesomes and hardcore-porno-sex. Sure the bastard would record the whole thing too. Every bit of the sex they'd had, he recorded it and was doing something else with it than using it. I wasn't sure what though.

Rhaven's lullaby was the most beautiful thing I'd ever heard. It was like we could touch each other and everything else would disappear. I wished that it was true, that we could have a life like that, together. I knew it wasn't probable probably, so I wasn't getting my hopes up on it.

I called her everyday, trying to explain and she never answered. Either she'd decline the call or wouldn't respond to anything and turning it on silent or shutting her phone off. I never cared to leave messages, so I didn't. I texted her jokingly about having sex together and didn't get anything. That was a shocker. She loved sex.

In the morning, as soon as we all got to school and got everything in our backpacks ready, we headed into the cafeteria and she made a beeline to him immediately. Wynrie stayed behind and hung out in a corner in the cafeteria. Daemon sat down at an empty table to gave me a look. I went over to the table and sat down and he said," You know, you can make this right. Just man up. You know what you have to do to fix this. Unless, you don't want to fix it of course. You are doing a wonderful job at that currently."  I shot my own look at him and replied," Yeah, yeah, yeah, I know and I was thinking the same thing. Yeah, yeah, I know I need to make a damn move because he will only be able to cause her more hurt, more pain, if I don't. I have to make my move, soon. I know."

Rhaven didn't pay me any attention in school either. She went to study hall for every class we had together and she stayed there most other times just so that she didn't have to bump into me in the hallway. She only responded to a few of Daemon's texts and said," I don't want to have anxiety attacks because of that woman and him if there's something there. If he's got something going on with her that's fine, but I'm not going to wait around til he's bored of herand comes crawling back to me. He's just like Ryder sometimes, I swear." That was that part that killed me the most, "just like Ryder." It ate away at my soul for quite some time after I found out about that.

Time seemed so slow as I waited fir it to get somewhat bearable. Slow enough to make my shot...