Dear Goodbye... [COMPLETED]

DIARY ENTRY #34

DIARY ENTRY #34

Dear Diary,

I hate everything. I hate it. I hate it all. I hate them for letting me go that easily. Hindi ba dapat sa isang relasyon kahit friendship pa 'yan, it's a two-way process, diba? Diba‽

Diary, how could they do that to me? I treated them like family. They weren't just best friends to me. Pero bakit nila kinayang makipagcut-ties sa akin‽

Alysa even called me desperate for trying to save our friendship. Kit took her. She took my best friend. Ngayon eh wala na. Hindi na kami magkaibigan. And you know what else is funny? Huh?

I am the villain of their story. I am the crazy freaking possessive friend who can't understand a single freaking thing. I am their enemy. I am the bad guy.

To add salt to the wound, Cristian sided with them, as well as Amelia. I'm actually blaming the sectioning. Siguro kung hindi lang kami nahiwalay ng section, siguro magkakaibigan pa rin kami.

Siguro hindi nila ako iniwan.

Truth to be told, I'm really scared right now, Diary. Any time soon, I feel like Kaine's gonna leave me too.

I feel so weak, so terrified, so worried. I also wanna be mad. Actually, I think furious is the right term.

I gave them my all. Now, I'm left with nothing. I'm now an empty shell. All I could do was cry. Why the hell do I always have to cry?

Pagod na ako, Diary. Ilang araw kong itinago 'to sa lahat. I can't even cry in front of my family. Can't even tell this to my sister.

After three days of keeping the pain to myself, I can finally say it to you. Kahit ngayon, pwede na akong umiyak sa harap mo. Ilang araw na kasi akong umiiyak kada naliligo ako para hindi mahalata nila Mommy eh.

Kaya sorry muna, Diary ha? Medyo mababasa ka muna. Saglit lang naman ito. Saglit lang akong iiyak. As long as Killian remains as my friend, and as long as Kaine stays with me, I'll be fine. I'll be okay. I'll get through this.

Puffy eyes,

Zoe