My Best Friends Brother // Supernatural

Chapter 6

It's been a week since we left Stanford, we investigated the apartment and found absolutely nothing so we decided to go find John, whatever killed Jessica also killed Mary and he's the only one with all of the information on this thing

"Sammy?" I say placing a hand on his shoulder "swap with me" I say "I'm fine" Sam replies "Dean stop the car" I say seriously, Dean instantly pulls over and I get out of the car opening the passenger seat "sit with me then" I say, he looks at me jaw clenched "Samuel" I whisper, he sighs but gets in the back seat anyways, I close the door and get in the back too "it's okay for you to be pissed off" I whisper "I don't want to talk about it Regina" Sam complains "fine but can you try to get some sleep? Because you being this tired won't benefit anyone" I say tapping my lap, Sam hesitates but gives in and lays down with his head on my lap, I instantly start rubbing my hand through his hair like I know he loves, Dean is looking at me through the rear mirror with a small smile which I return and he starts up the car again. Within a couple of minutes into the drive I can hear a faint snoring coming from Sam "he's asleep" I whisper, Dean glanced up "I don't know how you do that" Dean says

"Do what?" I ask "get him to instantly calm down, every time I've tried he's just snapped at me. Since we were kids" Dean says, I shrug softly and look down at Sam "Sam and I are bonded, it's hard to explain. But I know exactly how he's feeling all of the time, it's like we share one heart in a very platonic way" I say, even in his sleep Sam looks very troubled "even though we didn't get along, Samuel loves Jessica and she was a great girlfriend to him. He's not going to be the same for a while, he's going to go bitter before he does and we can't let that happen Dean" I say looking up, deans eyes meet mine through the rear mirror and he nods agreeing

I lean my head backwards on the seat, I accidentally enter Sam's head while he's sleeping and watch him from a far. He's dreaming of Jessica's funeral, and he's crying. How did I get in here I need to get out. I snap myself out of it and Sam's jolts awake breathing heavily scaring me, I look at him with a frown, I was just in there what the hell turned so bad "are you okay man?" Dean asks "I'm fine" Sam says, he gives me a look "nightmare?" I ask, he nods. I reach over and grab a bottle of water I keep here and hand it to him "hey Dean can you pull over at that diner over there, I think we all need to get some food in our system" I say, Dean nods and pulls over. We get out the car in silence and get a booth "what are you having?" I ask Sam "I'm not hungry" Sam complains "yeah that option isn't on the menu alright" I say, I call the waitress over "can we get some coffee over here and um three of your breakfast specials, two of those with extra bacon and extra sausages. Please" I say with a smile "absolutely" the waitress replies and goes back to the till

"I don't want anything extra" Sam complains "I know Sammy, that was for me and Dean" I say, Dean smiles "you know me well" he says "you bet your ass I do" I reply, I rest my hand over Sam's and he looks at it for a second before moving away making me frown "Jess wouldn't have liked that" Sam says, I nod and move over slightly "I'm sorry, I'm just worried about you alright? It's not like I'm making a move on you Sam" I say, he looks at me and I hear how unreasonable I'm being "I'm sorry" I say, he doesn't reply, I look over at Dean who's pretending not to listen "Maybe we shouldn't have left Stanford so soon" Sam speaks up, we look over him "Sam, we dug around there for a week. We came up with nothing. If you wanna find the thing that killed Jessica—" Dean starts saying "we got to find dad first" Sam interrupts "John disappeared and then all of a sudden this thing appears, after what 20 years? That's not a coincidence" I say

"Dad will have answers. He'll know what to do" Dean says, I agree. I hear someone shuffling behind me and turn around, someone walking into the bathroom, I get up and follow her. She's alone and the bathroom is empty "hey" I say, she turns to look at me "I need you to be real quiet alright?" I compel, she stays quiet, I push her against the door holding it closed and start feeding, I feel calmer already, going too long without feeding makes me spiral out of control. I heal the girl and clean her neck "forget what I did to you" I say, she walks into the stalls and I walk over to the sink to clean my mouth before walking out. Our food has arrived and the boys were waiting for me so we could eat "are you okay?" Dean asks, I nod "yeah" I day looking over at Sam, he looks so tired, he's barely slept all week and when he does he gets these nightmares, it's an invasion of privacy but maybe I should enter his mind and make sure everything stays normal so he can get a good sleep this time

"You're being very quiet" Sam says to me "I'm not" I reply "listen I didn't mean to be rude okay? I'm just-" Sam says but I shake my head "please do not apologise for being in grief alright, I don't blame you for a second okay, I'm just trying not to push you. Just because I'm not as sensitive does not mean I don't get it" I say "I know you do" Sam says "the fact that you're not sharing is worrying me but I'm not going to force you to" I continue, Sam nods "I keep getting nightmares of that night, I can't shake them" Sam says "we figured that's what was causing it" Dean says "we need to find dad" Sam says "we will and we will find the son of a bitch that killed Jessica" I say seriously "I know" Sam says, we finish our food and get back on the road, this time I ride shotgun and Sam lays in the back trying to get some sleep

We wait a while "I hate that it's this way, but I'm glad to have you guys back" Dean whispers "it gets lonely out here" he continues, he gives a glance "I hate to say that I'm glad too, I just, I don't think Sam will recover from this Dean. He loved Jessica so much" I say, I turn to look at sleeping Sam "he's a Winchester, he'll be just fine" Dean says "trauma and daddy issues aside?" I ask, Dean slaps me on the shoulder and I just laugh at him "dumbass" I complain, sitting back down. Dean keeps his focus on the road but I can't help and just look at him, and I can't help remember why I fell for him all those years ago, he was always a pain in my ass and he tested me in a way nobody has before