My Best Friends Brother // Supernatural

Chapter 97

The boys rip the robes and IV off of me, and Dean gives me the chain "I thought you would've gotten rid of it" I say "I tied it to my favourite gun so it would always be with me even if you weren't" Dean says, I cup his face with my hands and kiss him softly "Kissing you while being in love with you trumps everything else" I say resting my forehead to his "You must be hungry" Sam says walking back in, he hands me a blood bag. Dean gives him a look and he steps back "Are we going to talk about this?" I ask "No" Dean replies "Dean," I say sadly "I heard enough about this. It's making me nauseous and a little murderous. So I would rather not" Dean replies "I am sorry, especially that you had to find out from a smart mouth like humanity off me," I say "Are we still talking about it?" Dean asks standing up "Fine" I say, I pull the cap from my blood bag and drink it up in one go

"I was starving" I say "I'm going to um go, I'll catch you guys later" Sam says, I give him an apologetic look "No Sammy wait" I say getting to my feet, I follow him out "Listen about everything, that I said" I say, he shakes his head "It wasn't to hurt me, I know that. You were pissed and trying to hit me where it hurts. I know you would never say that to me if you were um sane" Sam says, I nod "you are my best friend, I could never hurt you" I say "I know" He nods "But Dean, he's hurt. And it's understandable why, so sort that out first and I'll still be here when he's alright" Sam says, I give him a small smile and he squeezes my shoulder before walking off. I go back to the dungeon "hi" I say "hi" Dean replies, I offer a hand and he takes it. Dean pulls me closer and hugs me

"I missed you so much" Dean whispers hugging me tighter "I missed you" I whisper, I can't hold back anymore. I let the tears flow out with the pain that I am feeling, the loss and guilt. Everything at once

Dean picks me up and takes me to a room, I open my eyes and see that it's Sam's room "I hate to think about what happened with the two of you, but I know you were the only one that could've known how to get her back. I can't hate either of you for what happened ten years ago and I can't hate you for pick up her pieces when I was the one that left her broken. Right now you're the one she needs the most" Dean says to us, he rests me on the bed "I'm going to get some food" he says, Dean kisses my cheek and walks off "he's taking this pretty well" I whisper "he punched me in the face" Sam says sitting down next to me "For Dean that's mellow" I say "I know" Sam replies "do you want to talk about it?" I ask "about what? That night?" Sam asks "what no, I mean how it was when I was away" I say turning to face him "why tou want to talk about that night?" I ask "I barely remember that night" Sam replies "Same" I say

"Except we're both lying"

"Yeah we are"

"It was stupid"

"Yes it was"

"Is it weird that it's not weird for me that it happened?"

"No Sam, it's not weird for me either"

We share a look "care to guess why?" Sam asks "I think we were what we needed at that point in time, there's nothing more to it" I say "did you want to get back at Dean is that why you did it?" Sam asks "part of it I guess, I just wanted to feel better and you were there. Is that bad?" I ask "no, I felt the same way" Sam replies "things were so different then, I never expected to marry Dean. For all I knew that was it" I say "your reaction when Dean showed up in Stanford said something different" Sam says "I've loved Dean since I was twelve, he was my first crush, the first person I had ever wanted to um be with, he was my first kiss" I say and laugh "right, you were playing spin the bottle at that party wasn't it?" Sam asks, I nod "I snuck it, Dean was so mad. The bottle never actually landed on him, he threatened the guy it landed on and kisses me instead" I say, Sam chuckles

"He started liking me back when I grew boobs" I say "yeah well if he liked you any earlier it would've been weird, he's much older" Sam says, I nod "I loved that, the whole leather jacket and mysterious look he's always had. It was just, hot" I say and shiver slightly "he's always made you feel that way huh" Sam says, I nod "he makes me feel the way you felt with Jess" I say "it's a good feeling" Sam says "I hope you can feel that again someday Sammy" I add "I do too" Sam replies "and are you trying to distract me by talking about Dean?" I ask "of course, you can never shut your mouth about him" Sam says, I shove him a little and he smiles "you need a haircut" I say rubbing my hand through his hair "well you're the one that cuts my hair and you've been on your no emotions vacation" Sam says, I chuckle "why don't we do that tomorrow?" I ask, he nods "did you guys give Kevin the proper funeral?" I ask "yeah, same place we did for um little hunter" Sam says "we thought you would've preferred it that way" he says and I nod

"I would've, I wish his last memory of me was getting tied up to a chair and left as a message" I say "is that how you left him?" Sam asks, I nod "why?" I ask "that's not how we found him" he says "how did you find him?" I ask "walking freely" Sam replies "yeah well he's always been a clever cookie so" I say "you should get some rest" Sam suggests "so should you, bringing back not just your brother but your best friend from a demonic vacation wasn't easy" I say "yeah I need to sleep for a week" Sam groans, I smile at him and nod "good night Sammy" I say walking away "it's good to have you back" Sam says quietly enough so only I could hear him