My Best Friends Brother // Supernatural

Chapter 40

"We have your results back" Sam says opening the little window on the door, in staring at the fan directly on top of me  "and it's true isn't it? I've got a fucking virus" I say "yeah it seems like it's werewolf venom, highly toxic for vampires and if we don't find a cure soon it's going to drive you rabid" Sam replies, I sit up and walk to the door "Sam I need you to promise me, if we don't find a cure for this. You need to kill me before I go rabid, I'm not letting this damn thing take anyone else down with me" I say looking into his eyes "you'll have to stake me with real wood or even your normal machete that works too, vervain soaked bullets to slow me down" I say "stop, stop saying this. We're going to find a cure for you. I'm not going to have to kill you" Sam says "if it comes down to it?" I ask "I'll do it" Dean says, Sam glances back "Cass says this is the only amount I can give you?" Dean says handing me a half full bottle of blood through the bars, I nod

"Just enough to keep me from desiccation" I reply with a smile "how did this happen?" Sam asks "we think it was Ash, he added just the right amount to take a while to sink into my system and now that it has. I am more sensitive to everything, the sound of your hearts pumping" I say opening the cap "the blood flowing" I continue, my face vamps out as I take a sip from the blood "the throbbing of each vein in your body" I whisper, I sit back down and drink the rest of the bottle. I look up at Dean "you should not be feeding me your blood" I say "we don't have any bags anymore" Sam replies "it doesn't matter, then you gotta stop feeding me. If I go rabid, Dean will be the first person I go for. I'm already half addicted to you Dean" I say, I drop the bottle and lay back "we're not going to stop feeding you, you need to be strong enough to hold yourself together until we find a cure" Dean replies

I sense someone in the room, in the far corner my mother stands there with a sad smile on her face "oh god" I whisper, she walks over to me and I sit up giving space for her on the bed "I'm going crazy" I say "I didn't expect this to happen to you sweetie" my mother says, I'm looking into her eyes. The hazel eyes she passed onto me "I didn't mean for this to happen" I whisper, I can feel the tears fogging up my eyes "and I know that you're not really here" I say "but I'm in here" she says pointing to my heart. I look down at my hands "I never stopped missing you mum" I say "I know, I've been watching over you. But I have to admit GG, this isn't the woman I wanted you to become. You're one of them, they should've never let you live this long" she says, I look at her again but this time she looks moldy and green, I can see the slashes on her face and her blood soaked nightgown. I jump up to my feet

"you should have died, they should've killed you on sight. John was weak, his boys too. I've come to finish the job" she gets up, I can hear the squishing of her dead flesh as she backs me into a corner, I fall down covering my face and screaming "please mum no, don't" I scream, I open my eyes and she's gone

I sit there on my own with my head buried in my knees crying quietly "you've disappointed me kid" John voice echoed through the room, I whimper "you knew what I was" I whisper "but I didn't think you would go feeding on my son, putting him in danger each time you did. I died to keep him breathing, not to hand him over to you as your personal blood bag" John spits, I look up and he's kneeling in front of me "your mother was right, I should've killed you when I had the chance. You're a monster just like the rest" John says "I'm not a monster" I say tears streaming down my face, my face vamps out and I stand to my feet "I am not a monster, you are. You always have been, you were a terrible father to these boys" I growl, I attack him but before he hits the wall her vanishes. I lay on the bed again "I'm going fucking crazy" I whisper to myself

None of this is real, remember that

"Why did you let me die?" Jenni asks, I turn to her "go away" I say "go away" I say louder, she's crying tears of blood, bleeding from her neck and the wound on her stomach where she got stabbed. I get into the bed closing my eyes again trying to force myself to sleep but it was hopeless. The hunger is getting worse, my head feels like it's going to explode "Sammy" I yell, I walk to the door "Sammy please" I cry, the little window opens and Sam is standing there glossy eyes staring at me "I need help Sammy, I need to get out of here. Please Sammy help me, your father he's here" I whisper, tears still streaming down my face drastically "I'm starving Sam" I say trying to reach out for him "I'm so scared" I whimper "I can't let you out, you know that Reggie. This is for your own good, we are trying to help you, this is the only way" Sam replies touching my hand, I can feel his veins pulsing, I lose control of my face and literally push myself away from him dropping on the floor

"Reggie?" Sam asks, I jump up at him growling and hissing trying to bite "let me out Sam" I growl "let me out or I swear to go you'll be the last to go Samuel, I'll eat Bobby and Dean while you watch. I'll eat them nice and slow" I growl

My eyes widen as my brain catches up to my words "Sammy I'm sorry, I- it's like I had no control" I whisper turning away, I back into that corner again trying to stay as far away from the door as possible hiding my face and trying to block out everything else