My Best Friends Brother // Supernatural

Chapter 48

"So what are you making?" I ask Sam peeking over to see what he's mixing "is that soup or gunk?" I scrunch my nose "alright so I'm not a good cook, at least it's something" Sam complains, he turns to look at Dean "want some diner?" Sam asks "pass" Dean replies putting his headphones on, he glances at me then away "how long do you think he's staying mad for?" Sam asks, he makes us both a plate and we sit on the table next to each other "ah well he got over the demon blood thing pretty fast, I'm guessing leaving him in purgatory for a year will be much faster" I reply sarcastically, Sam rolls his eyes at me and laughs. I eat the gunk he made which turned out not so bad, Dean is still mad "while you ladies keep pouting at each other, I'm going to shower" I say walking off

I turn on the shower on and look at myself in the mirror waiting for the water to warm up

"COME ON BENNY WE HAVE TO RUN" I yell pulling Benny to his feet and dragging him away, the wendigo wounded us pretty badly. Just enough that our super speed is barely working "leave me and go" Benny says "are you out of your mind? If you go down we're going down together" I say truthfully, he nods and we run together trying to get away from the blood thirst monster chasing us

The doorknob rattles softly, I close my eyes trying to block out the memories "yeah?" I ask loudly "are you showering?" Dean asks "yes" I say, i unlock the door and Dean comes in "are you alright?" He asks "just peachy" I reply with a fake smile "you're getting them too?" He asks, I shake my head "I know that look, I've seen that look on you before. I've seen it on myself too" Dean says cupping my face with his hand "I know you have a reason to have knocked" I whisper "let's shower first" Dean says with a smirk, I have to say being out of purgatory and being here in this cabin alone has left us doing the same thing over and over again. Trying to catch up for lost time I guess, and also relieving all that built up stress and trauma we have held onto so tight in that monstrous place

"So, what was the reason?" I ask Dean while getting dressed "this kid, um prophet, we promised to keep him safe. His name is Kevin, he called Sam a lot over the past year and he was angry, hurt by the fact that Sam just disappeared on him" Dean replies, I sit down on the bed next to him and rest my hand on his "and how are you doing Dean?" I ask "I'm okay" Dean lies, I'm looking into his eyes and listening to his fast heart beat "you know you can't lie to me" I say "I do know, I just have no idea what I'm supposed to say. I feel betrayed, he didn't even try" Dean says, his voice cracking softly and his eyes glossy "I know he should've, I would've if I had been alive and I sure as hell wouldn't have let him give up. But aren't you at least a little relieved that he had a chance at a somewhat normal life that we couldn't give him when we were here Dean? Come on I know if you had the opportunity you would've taken it" I say

Dean looks away, his heart skips a beat "you took it didn't you?" I ask, he doesn't reply "then what makes this any different? I died and you moved on" I say "Sam was in hell and I went to look for someone, someone who told me I could show up if I ever wanted a shot at a normal life. A former hookup, um-" Dean waffles "it was Lisa wasn't it?" I ask, Dean nods "I remember her, made me so jealous how you swooped her off her feet and went galavanting into the night in your impala with her" I say, I sigh trying not to let it get to me but it's impossible "so I'll say it again Dean, how is it any different. You living your apple pie life with Lisa while Sam was stuck in hell?" I ask "you're right, but I tried. At least I tried Regina, I didn't just let go that easily" Dean raises his voice at me and gets to his feet "do not raise your voice at me Dean, I'm not the girl you knew before" I growl, he sighs "I'm sorry" he whispers kneeling down and cupping my face with his hand

"Were you happy?" I ask, he frowns "with Lisa, during your time with her? Were you happy?" I ask "yeah, I was. But she wasn't you, and having her never replaced the hole in my heart from losing you" Dean admits, he kisses me softly "we have to find Kevin, Sam has a small barely visible lead on where he could be" Dean explains, I nod "let's go" I say getting to my  feet and holding my hands out for Dean, he gets up and we pack up our things. Sam is packed and waiting for us "ready to go?" Sam asks "getting back on the road with the two of you without constant monsters on my back?" I ask with a smile on my face "I have to admit this sounds like real paradise to me" I say leading the way out, the boys follow and I get in the back seat of the impala, Sam hands the keys over to Dean who gets into the driver seat. He takes a moment to appreciate being back in his 'baby' before turning her on

I lean back as Dean drives off and look the boys in front of me, being happier than ever to be back here in this world. A damaged world but better than the shithole I found myself stuck in, and with my boys