My Best Friends Brother // Supernatural

Chapter 53

We drive up to a restaurant, I stay silent the whole ride. Thinking about what I mentioned to Sam, about going to Bobby's house for a while until things feel normal again and the more I think about it the better that sounds. I just have to break it to Dean. Dean and Kevin are distracted deeply in their own conversations when the waitress comes over with more food "I'm gonna go for a pitstop at the hospital" I say getting up and walking off before they say anything, I grab my suitcase from the car and super speed around town until I find a hospital. I walk in confidently until I find a nurse "hey can you take me to the blood bank?" I compel, she nods slowly and leads the way without another word "and act natural" I whisper, she walks softer the way she usually would smiling at the other patients and workers of this hospital

We get to the blood bank "just keep watch okay I won't be long" I say going inside and filling up my cooler until I physically cannot anymore "okay, forget our whole conversation" I compel her and super speed away, I make a quick stop at a market to get a cure black cup with a straw to pour my blood on without suspicion. I return to the restaurant "there you are, we're making a stop in Michigan, Kevin wants to check on his mom" Dean says "Michigan?" I ask "so we'll be going just on the boarder of South Dakota, right?" I ask, Dean frowns, Sam is realising "Are you actually going through with that?" Sam asks, I purse my lips together "uh Dean can I um talk to you?" I ask, I glance at Sam who gives me a nod. I hold my hand out for Dean and we sit in his impala, I turn around to face him "you're freaking me the hell out what's going on ?" Dean asks

"I've been uh thinking, I need a break. I'm going to go to Bobbys house for a few weeks, living on the edge this way isn't feeling good for me. Three years in purgatory, I burst out and now I'm still running for my life. I can't live like this, at least not yet"

Dean frowns "you're leaving us? You're leaving me?"

"I'm not leaving, I'm taking a break. I can't function properly right now. And you'll know where to find me too, all I need if a few days or uh weeks to just relax"

Dean is looking into my eyes, he cups my face and kisses me "so you're not leaving?" He whispers resting his forehead against mine "I just need a little time" I reply, I look into his eyes with a smile "I'm going to hate being away from you guys again, so please don't stay away for too long. When this thing blows over a little, come by and we can get back on the road" I say seriously "Yeah" Dean says looking away "Dean?" I ask "mhm?" He hums "I'm not saying goodbye to you and I sure as hell am not breaking up with you either, this isn't like college. I'm just- taking some time for myself. Time to get back to normal, to be myself again. To be a better girlfriend for you and better friend for Sam. Purgatory is still in my head and I'm barely recognising my own mind" I say, he turns to look at me again "tell me how you feel" I say, Dean shakes his head and I move closer to him

"Tell me"

"I just got you back, I didn't even get over your death in the first place. I can't think of being without you for minutes and now I'm going to have to leave you for day? For-for weeks? The thought of that, i hate it"

"I do too, and I wish you could come with me. But Sammy needs you to stay with him and I need you to stay with him. This isn't a goodbye Dean"

"I know it's not"

"You waited for me when I was kidnapped, you still loved me after I died too. This is going to be much easier, I'll be a phone call away"

Dean leans in and kisses me softly, there's a soft knock on the glass and we pull away, Sam is staring at us. I motion for them to come back in "We need to make a quick stop at Sioux Falls" Dean speaks up, I look at Sam "you decided to take time off?" He asks "just some, I need to get back to my own head again" I reply "I think it's a good idea, you'll get to live a somewhat normal life and we'll come by when we can" Sam says, I nod "and I'll be waiting for my boys to come by" I say. I get Sam to hand me a blood bag and fill up my new cup with it "that's cute, you look like a school girl" Dean says, I drink from my straw and just look at him "just like I remember" he says "you were too busy smushing faces with the seniors in my class Dean" I say "I was" Dean says and I laugh at him "and so were you" Sam says, I glanced back at him "huh" I say "oh right, you were with the jock. David?" Dean asks

"Ah yes, David. Took my virginity in the back seat of his Porsche" I reminisce while scrunching my nose "why did you get with him anyways? He was a douche" Sam asks "because Dean was hooking up with Nancy" I point out "so you got with David?" Dean asks "I mean yeah, you made me jealous. We used to sneak off to watch the stars all the time and then suddenly you were with Nancy. It pissed me right off so-" I try to explain "so you got with the guy that pissed me off the most" Dean replies "you weren't even in school" I roll my eyes "he was a douche" Dean says and I shrug "fun times" I say and we all laugh at the stupidity we spent together

I look at these boys, happy to be with them. Happy to be alive again but also ready to take a break for myself, I need the time to heal from the past three years and I'm so glad they understand that