My Best Friends Brother // Supernatural

Chapter 61

I am standing in this bunker, looking around in awe "how did you guys find this place?" I ask "we got the coordinates for it. It's a Men of Letters bunker, goes back generations" Sam replies, my eyes find the library "a library?" I ask "I knew that would be your favourite place, we got you a little chair" Dean says leading the way, he points to a fluffy arm chair and I smile "and we decorated your room for you" Sam says "I get my own room? Wait you've had this place for a little while now right?" I ask, they nod "you did my room anyways?" I ask "of course" they reply in unison "you guys are very sweet when you're not being a pain in my ass boys. You know that right?" I ask "yes we do" Sam replies "come on" Dean says leading the way down some steps and through a corridor, there's 4 doors each with their names on the door 'Regina Winchester' is on mine, I touch it softly with a smile on my face "you guys gave me your last name?" I ask

"That way you won't have to change it when we get married" Dean blurts out, Sam and I both turn to look at him shocked, Dean himself is shocked "when we what?" I ask "I didn't mean to say that out loud" Dean says, I can't help but let the smile sneak back onto my lips "open the door smirky" dean says turning me around, I open the door and it's very simple, in the best way. Except for the giant bookshelf covering one of the walls, the bed is white with pink covers and I laugh at that, these boys have no idea that I hate the colour pink but their efforts are adorable. I walk to the bookshelf and every book I have ever mentioned through out the years are there, even the supernatural books that they hate so much. There's a little table in the corner with another book on top of it 'Looking for Alaska' is sitting on top of it. My favourite book when I was in college "do you like it?" Sam asks "I know you've never had a room of your own either, not since you were five" he continues, I sit on my bed "I love it. Thank you boys" I say

"We will let you get settled in, there's a cooler under your desk there" Dean says while putting down my two suitcases, I nod "bathroom is down the hall" Sam replies and they walk out. I continue to inspect the room impressed by their efforts, they did everything the way I would've, except for the pink covers but then again I loved pink when I was 10. I grab a fresh towel hanging from the coat peg behind my door and head to the bathroom. I have a long and well deserved shower before going back to my room, I pour a blood bag into one of my cups with the straw, get changed into some tracksuits and meet the boys in the dinning room. Dean walks in and sets a plate in front of me and Sam before disappearing to get his own, he kisses me on the cheek and sits next to me "it's good to have you back" Sam says "it's good to be back, I mean it was fun while it lasted but it wasn't real and if I wasn't blood high half of the time I would've been real lonely" I admit

"Blood high?" Dean asks "yeah, consuming a lot of fresh human blood has sort of the same effect as some drugs. It's very relaxing and calming" I say "things were really quiet while you were away" Dean says "that's because I never shut up" I say with a smile before trying the pasta Dean made, I moan softly "also sing when do you make such good pasta?" I ask taking another fork full into my mouth "he went out to buy while you were in the shower. You're the only one of us that can cook" Sam says "you guys aren't that bad" I say "last time I cooked you got food poisoning" Dean says and I laugh "oh yeah" I say still laughing "good thing I don't reply on food to survive anyways" I shrug lifting up my cup with blood "I always wanted to ask, why do you eat if you don't have to?" Dean asks "didn't we go through this like three years ago?" I ask "maybe, refresh my memory" Dean replies "it's nice, I mean all my senses are heightened. Everything that I liked before I turn I love now, I can taste every particle of food" I explain "and everything is like that?" Sam asks

"Yeah, it's like even though I can't feel the cold or heat the way you do, my skin is still extra sensitive. I can feel everything, when someone touches me I can feel it all the way down to my nerves, hugs feel more comforting and meaningful than it ever has before. I can hear things from miles away, sense them too. Like when it's about to rain or when you were about to open the door in the motels" I say with a laugh and glance at Dean who smiles "right I remember that" Dean replies, Sam scrunches his nose "the wind against my skin feels awesome, the warmth of the sun" I reminisce "I mean I don't need my glasses anymore either, I can read the title of that book in the far corner there" I say pointing "and feelings, are more intense. Love, happiness, passion" I explain looking between the both of them "I can literally feel it all in my heart, with each beat. Pain is more tolerable then it was too" I continue, they're staring intently "I'm sensing a but" Dean adds

"I mean when you're at your highest, it's the best thing ever. But the low? It's almost intolerable, pain and hatred and anger. It's hard to manage and when it all gets too much you can just" I say and snap my fingers "turn it all off" I continue "have you ever wanted to?" Sam asks "yeah, twice. Purgatory and when Ash kidnapped me. It's all I wanted to do in that moment but I knew that if you ever found me that way, you would never look at me the same" I say "is it hard to get it back on?" Dean asks "almost impossible, we only turn it off when we don't want to feel anything anymore. It's hard to find a reason to turn it back on" I reply "I hope I never have to" I say "if it happens, we will be there to bring you back" Dean says reaching for my hand, I smile "I won't have to, not for as long as I have the both of you anyways" I say they smile at me "well I'm going to sleep" Sam says "that ride killed me" he continues "good night Sammy" I say "good night Reg" he replies

"Where is he?" Dean asks packing our plates, he goes into the kitchen and comes back "opening his door, taking his shoes off, door closes, bed springs" I say listening in, I tune out and look at Dean. He comes over and picks me up bridal style making me squeal and laugh "what are you doing?" I ask "taking you to your new bedroom" he says walking us down the corridor, he opens the door and pushes it open with his back. He sets me on the bed and goes to the door locking it closed before kicking his shoes off and laying on top of me "god I fucking missed you" he whispers "I did too" I reply and he presses his lips hard against mine