My Best Friends Brother // Supernatural

Chapter 79

"You're very quiet back there" Sam says, I have the window rolled down all the way with my face resting on the door "I feel sick" I groan "feel sick? You're still a vampire right?" Dean asks, I pull my demon dagger out of my boot and cut my hand, I watch it heal slowly but still heal "yup" I say and gag, Dean parks in front of the boat safe house and I stumble out running a little further and falling to my knees before throwing up all the blood and food I had consumed in the past day, I wipe my mouth and groan "hey are you okay?" Dean asks "go see Kev, I'll be fine" I say waving him off before he can get closer to me

I stay on my knees and vomiting every few minutes before getting back on my feet, I walk to the boot of the car, open it and pull out a blood bag "Naomi I need a better explanation, what did you do to me?" I call out while closing the boot with a hard slam, Sam and Dean walk out and I turn to look at them "Kevin is gone, all his notes. Everything. Gone" Dean says "he's gone?" I ask "yeah" Sam replies, I nod "so what do you think happened?" I ask "guess he finally freaked out, made a run for it" Dean shrugs "but to where?" Sam questions "I guess we'll just have to wait and see" I reply "but for now can we go home?" I ask "yeah" Dean agrees

I spend the entire ride with my head resting on the car door letting the wind blow in my faces once we get to the bunker I instantly grab my towel and have a long cold shower to see if it will help before returning to the library "where's Sam?" I ask Dean who's sitting on the map table "he's hit the sack, trial took it out of him" Dean replies "and what is up with you anyways? If you were human I would think you were pregnant" Dean says, I chuckle and sit next to him "yeah except I'm not exactly built to hold a pregnancy anymore" I reply "did something happen in purgatory?" He asks, I shake my head "no, I think it was just that damn portal. It's not meant for monsters, so I'm guessing the in between of getting through must've done something" I say with a small shrug

"in that case shouldn't you be in bed?"

"I don't want to sleep"

"Come on"

Dean picks me up bridal style and takes me to my room "what are you doing?" I ask "you're clearly sick, it will do you no good pretending you're not" Dean says laying me down on my bed "you still like tea? I bought some the other day" Dean suggests, I smile and nod "okay" he replies and walks off, I wait until he's a safe distance away "Castiel I need some help here, you can smell when someone's sick or at least what they have. Please, show your face" I pray looking up at the ceiling but get no reply, Dean comes in with two mugs and sits next to me on the bed, I sit up and cross my legs "penny for your thoughts?" I ask Dean as he hands me my mug, I take a sip of the camomile tea and let out a soft satisfied moan at the taste, despite him acting tough, Dean is actually so kind and caring "before she disappeared, Naomi touched your head and said she was giving you your biggest wish" Dean says, I nod "what's your biggest wish?" Dean asks "my biggest wish was to be human again, and I'm not" I say

"I check, cut my hand in the car and nothing. See" I say showing him the palm I cut, it looks normal as if nothing had happened to it "it's just weird" dean shrugs "I agree, I don't know what she did, I wish I did and Cas is being no help either" I sigh "should I try? Cas usually shows up whenever I call him" Dean shrugs, I chuckle but shake my head "let's see how this goes, for all we know it's just some weird thing from being pulled through that damn portal twice in the space of a year" I say and take another sip from my tea "do you wish you had a normal life sometimes?" Dean asks, I frown "I mean I guess, college was as normal as it was going to get and that didn't work out" I say "I mean from young, we both had normal lives until something blew up in our faces" Dean says "do you ever wish that something didn't blow up?" Dean asks "Dean if my parents hadn't gotten killed that night or I didn't get saved by your father we would've never met, I never would've met Sammy or Bobby, even Cas. I do wish sometimes we could've got out, I wish you had come to college with us and left John that night. It was safe and comfortable but it wasn't me" I admit

"You never stopped hunting" Dean points out "exactly, the apple pie life, that's a Sam thing. And for his sake I hope that he gets it, I really do but I don't see that life for me, not anymore. Because I can't have it" I reply "and if I'm some way you had our baby? How could we bring it up in this life?" Dean asks "first of all that's impossible, and second of all I would give them a choice, I wouldn't hold them in a life they didn't want. I'm a hunter, brought up a hunter and if my child wants to be a child then I'll bring them up to be the best damn hunger this world has ever seen, and if they don't then I'll sign them up for a school, fixed school and stay in one place. My child's needs will always come first" I say, Dean smiles "you're amazing you know that right?" He says touching my cheek "I've been told once or twice" I reply leaning into his hand softly

After we drink our tea, Dean goes off to shower so we can sleep. He pulls me into his arms and hugs me tight as we fall asleep